Epitome of Imperfection

2011-11-28T20:27:00.000+08:00

Well,hey its Day 2.Im back!

Im not sure where to start off,and feeling a lil akward so many many things to share,so many updates!

First off i have definately cut myself off entirely to some "best fren" (used to be *spits on floor) that used to be mentioned is this blog.Early this year actually.Drama that went down was worth many many tv series.Lets not dwell into the past but lets just say I am glad that im not the only one who shared the same issues ,so definately the problem was NOT from me but from the gila physco betine sial itu.

I have moved to Hartmas nearly a year and tenancy is till early next year,still thinking where should i go,Damansara?Bangsar?Setiawangsa?Wangsa Maju? sigh..

I have also left my job in Astro mid this year after 4 years of servitude,its enough! I am now attached with Agoda.com since mid July.Thoughts on work.Better not discuss here.But i can daresay i do like the job though.

Nearly a year ago or so,(seems like yesterday) i have fell in love hard and was left broken hearted.I have met the one one guy who finally able to 'tame' me and my ways.Who listens,who cares,who guides me.And he was also the one guy who hates da betina sial and have seen it coming way ahead then all of us!Well it was great while it lasted with him.But maybe jodoh takde.And the worst part he left a huge huge chunk of hole in my heart.Tied up my lust towards other men for nearly 8 months! that is da longest recovery period i have ever ever had to endure.Up to today,i am not remotely intersted in any guy and bothered to flirt much.at all. I might be a spinster one day.Who knows.But no cats! i hate them,never will i turn into a boring old cat lady!!

BUT!! I GOT TO ADMIT! there is someone who did catch my attention.......da one guy after all this while...but..hurm..lets not go there yet..

Its so funny how to universe works.A girl that used to hate me now is my close fren.My current bff now is someone i met thru BS (betine sial - bullshit!) and her bf is...(haha..thou shalt not reveal someone mental might really end up in the mental ward if she finds out) My other bff now is more like a big sister to me albeit me being older by 2 years!

gtg now..will update again soon!

27-11-2011

2011-11-27T23:07:00.001+08:00

The date above marked the day i officially (this time i really hope so!) reopen my blog.
In time to usher 2012 . I have so many things to say.I have not been expressing much in writing for nearly a year +/-

I have many things to share.many emotions many thoughts.

So here we go again.life’s all about decisions and choices.im‬ stuck at the crossroads.so many uncertainties ,yet‬ ‪possibilities are endless.taking the plunge is all‬ ‪important,every different move have different outcome‬ ‪and consequences.‬ ‪i am sad and hurt deep inside.i yearn for something more.i‬ ‪cannot seem to comprehand what exactly i want.‬ ‪all i know is that,i want to be happy.thats it.dont care‬ ‪even its only for few hours or days.i just want to feel‬ ‪utterly at bliss and wash my worries away and getting‬ ‪caught up in the moment.‬ ‪dun get me wrong,im utterly grateful of my friends around‬ ‪me,especially my girls.BUT i am not talking bout those‬ ‪kind of feelings here. ‪getting caught up - its my fucking greatest weakness.‬ ‪infatuation is my buddy and lust is my pimp.‬ ‪no matter how i try,i just cannot open up to explain my‬ ‪feelings or emotions to anyone,vocally.i tried but i‬ ‪cant,maybe im afraid or refuse to expect negativity or‬ ‪backlash which will bruise my ego.and i hope that whoever‬ ‪reads it,understands.and i express myself better in writing.‬ ‪sometimes i feel i have the heart of stone.cold hearted.i‬ have so much love to give,but at times i never channel the‬ ‪energy correctly or effectively for others to feel,be it to‬ ‪my girls or friends.i am always in search of constant‬ ‪comfort zone first,only will i be able to let my guard down‬ ‪and reveal my true self.‬ i am waiting for the day.the day when my course of life‬ ‪will be altered drastically.‬ ‪but till when shall i wait?‬ ‪or when will i know the”This Is It” moment?‬

Life so far...

2010-12-19T21:51:00.001+08:00

Regrets.lots of no-turning-back issues.Hate.been having an explosively submissive love-hate issues.Drama.never been short of them,and in fact have realized we are all actors since we were born.
Grudges.been holding on to them even more.I can't stand girls who think they are classy and that men are all over them when in fact the so called men are worst gossipers!the amount of stories shared is amazing!people see you as a absolute slut whore,so easy!even easier when you throw yourself to them.please "ladies" don't blur the line between classy and thrashy!attention seekers are such desperate losers.argh!!
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2010-12-14T21:48:00.001+08:00

Rasa sayang tu tetap masih ada walaupun kurang dari dulu.dengan perasaan itulah membuatkan saya buntu.a feeling that I never really had.whereby having strong conscience on whatever I do.but now.I realized I can live without having to succumb.I just need more time to fully drift away.and once that is done I know I have recovered.I am on my way there but then the journey is not easy.one day at a time.I dun deny that there is hope.
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2010-12-14T01:24:00.005+08:00

Hello everyone! I have decided to reopen my blog.after much deliberation to move or stay.I know I lost many readers as non updates for nearly a year.but hopefully u guys might one day pop back in.lol...

Well lots have changed.happened.sooo many stories I dunno where to start.let's just move forward and let new stories that pop in create words for this blog along the way.

Da awesomeness of tis is that I can now blog whenever whatever easily.and as usual I am no holds barred ;)

But beware I am currently in an emotional rollercoaster ride so dun be suprised that an emo post might pop up sooner than u think!

I am not reading back old archives but den again I do not want to delete them.its like erasing memories.erasing my words and thoughts.memory cleanup.hmmm no.that's like murder!whoah yea I'm as dramatic as I used to be!maybe even worse!lol..gasspp!! I'm still me! Still as witty funny adorable and hmmm..cuter nOoww..haha ROFL..

So link me back up!

2010-07-01T20:08:00.000+08:00

looking back at archives makes me miss writing so much.so so much.but i just cant bring myself to start again yet
its been a long long journey since i left.i dont know where to start. i may continue or i may not.
this blog will never shut down as too much memories were stored.
memories of the greatest events that had happened in my life ...so far

2010-05-24T20:09:00.001+08:00

hello world ! *wipes dusts and cobwebs*

its been awhile eh..i dunno why did i stopped updating.too many things.too little time.i choose not to shutdown this blog yet,cz i know one day.one fine day.maybe now,or tomorrow or weeks months after,i know i will need a platform to express freely

i will be back.soon.meanwhile.u can reach me through my facebook or my blackberry

2010-02-28T05:06:00.000+08:00

have u ever gotten the feeling where u just wanna bury urself and never surface again for awhile?
i am feeling it right now.i am lonely inside.so empty.no matter how much i try to fill it up.i am blessed now with the people around me.this marks a month i have been here.so many dramas ,ups and downs,but most importantly new friendships gain.but i dun feel complete.not yet.though i carry my 'mak hayam'-ness everywhere,no matter how much i proclaim that i am a hunter looking for the hunted.but deep deep down i am doing all this in hope to feel less lonely and more cuddly.mindless hook-ups are no fun anymore.

maybe its the burning bellatine i had at Wayne's bday just now or the antibiotics and flu meds i just took,its making me so emo ,and melancholic all of a sudden.out of the blue,now i feel like crying.im working tomorrow at 3pm on a freaking Sunday!

sorry i have not kept my words to update.but i will try.

2010-02-16T13:33:00.002+08:00

hello everybody! i finally got my hands on the internet.the house have yet to be installed wifi.i have been suffering withdrawals ,i just went and got my hands on the maxis broadband instead.and not bad,connection is very fast and speed is good.i am so glad and happy.i can online anytime anywhere. :)
will update soon enough though.had shitloads of pics but now all gone,my memory card suddenly emptied out,i dunno where are all the piccies gone :(

so much drama went down since my hiatus..i dunno where to start.

back soon.

and oh yea..GONG XI FA CAI

2010-01-24T11:47:00.000+08:00

my moving date have been brought earlier.i am moving on 27th and reporting to new office on 28th ! i only have 2 more days being at home.its gonna be mad hectic and tiring,its crazzyy.

will update soon bout last night.a wedding and after parrty.

2010-01-21T18:58:00.003+08:00

forgive me la,i only just read the book so yea of course i have not seen the movie yet although Astro have been showing it.omg omg omg....i knew the key ending already all along,but then the bloody book which is bout 750+/- pages is absolutely a bloody exciting read i cant put it down.Anne Boleyn is so ambitious and the Howards/Boleyns are useless greedy and conniving.this book is from Mary Boleyn's point of view and i like her character a lot,and the way author Philippa Gregory portray the scenes she really let one who reads really able to imagine,its like being transported back to the 16th Century.after reading tis book,i have been pouring all over Wikipedia reading up on 16th Century Tudor.and i so fucking cant wait to get my hands on the following book ;

which is with Amy,i cannot tahan,i went and read the first chapter online.its so goood.imagine living the live of a courtier in a court which moves around to different castles,where everyday you have all the fun you can master,eat gloriously ,wear the finest dreses,being and serving the king,being so near the queen ,mingle wit all the aristocrats , how scandalous everyone can be,keeping secrets from the kings,sex is such a taboo to even speak off,and love is a luxury to have.

i am now a huge fan and clearly very fascinated with the 16th Century Tudor.

2010-01-18T21:13:00.000+08:00

i feel that my new layout look so "virginal" ,but its ok,i will learn to live with it.course i am always too darn ass lazy to change the layout.but since im nearing to start anew,might as well revamp the blog as well.

these days i realize that i go to work come home online read sleep .its a damn routine 5 days a week.macam agak zombie feeling.plus now they are running the appraisals and evaluation forms and such at the office,i still have not fulfilled my task handed to me by my colleagues to evaluate them.the soalan2 i baca damn membengongkan,it gives me a headache to crack my head,as all this affects my bonus and increment in April.plus seriously i see some of my colleagues are less enthusiastic already as the big move is nearing,i have realized i have lots of things to pack up in the office as well.argh!!

still discussing a lot of household things wit Amy via texts.semua money money money..sigh..but its ok,as long as when i move in,semua da sedia i dun mind.spent bout nearly 2k already.the relocation money memang takde aper2 extra pown. still discussing and she is mms-ing some more while typing here anyway..

ok ttyl ..

2010-01-17T21:11:00.001+08:00

no you have not dropped by a wrong blog.im just looking for a change of scene. :)

2010-01-17T17:41:00.003+08:00

Gaga's 'Bad Romance' have been pouncing in my head the whole day.cannot tahan must replay the song over and over in my playlist.even by typing this.this darn song is darn infectious.and every club i step into regardless in Ipoh or KL,once this song start je semua girls akan sangat gembira.even when i went to LQ wit the gayboys (its a gay club,putus harapan mak,noks,semua sedap2 mata memandang.so pandang je la,x koser nak pikat sbb semua pown senget bagai.LOL ) there is one who dance EXACTLY like the music video ! sgt sgt sama,timing and all..wtf i was so kagum,i stopped dancing and just see him dance the entire song.seriously gayboys have all the energy in the world to dance sooo hyphy and hardcore.

i have packed 90% already! in 10 days it will all be lugged off.time flies eh.im happy yet uncertain.but agak berat hati to leave my girlies bunch and some favourite souls ere there

.i cant wait to be reunited with my Amy ,though last wit her was early this month but it seems like ages.and luckily i get to see bff Ben before he flew off to UK .the day he flew Amy darling cried so hard,my heart ache hearing her cried so hard at the end off the line,but i encouraged her to cry,let it all out rather than bottling it all up.thank god now Marco (polo i just had to finish the sentence!hehe - inside joke ) is being a great great buddy to her now,keeping her sanity after working hours if not that girl will just curl up and cry in the empty apartment while waiting for me to move in.Ben have been truly her other half,when he left it feels like part of her also ilang.i just cant wait to be there for her as much possible.i was just talking to my adik Yunyun that Amy is part off me if we are together,its 1+1 buy 1 free 1 kinda thing,ada Farrah ada Amy or vice versa.that is how involved we are in each other lives if we are together.but then mmg impossible kalau 24/7 kehulu ke hilir melekats,as we both have our own lives and such,but we try to revolve things around each other.but of course at times we both need some space obviously we understand each other needs (ahem) and such.

seriously Bad Romance is on repetitive playback wey.omg ..c-a-n-n-o-t stop !

should i talk bout Mr.F ? well i will try to sum him up first,he is seriously a metrosexual-Zaraloving-cutefunnynottyhilariously-speaks absolute thick T'gganu accent wit his frens-bleached hair worse then me - chose me over frens (will story you all one day) -who knows how to lives it up but wit limits - cooks - merajuk kalahkan pompuan....
ok , tak nak citer banyak2 lagi la pasal dier,its baru saje so mesti all flowery and sweet .
why so negative u ask ?well lets just say experience have thought me to be on guard at all times.just go wit the flow :)

guess what !! i am now really strongly leaning towards BlackBerry Bold 9700

im a sucka for aiming for a better model of what i originally want (the BB 9000 ),like dulu i die2 want E63 den masuk kedai,beli E71 keluar..hahaha..OMFG i must tell u the most embarrassing joke ,my mum was talking to my abang ; 'Farrah said she wants to buy BLUEBERRY in Bandung,then my brother then came to my room,and said WTF ? u want THAT ??? i told mum 'pls dun embarrass me like that mummy !!'

i will get it by March or April ..omg cant wait ! sabar sabar.just realized wit the money im willing to spend on the phone,i can purchase a lovely bag from Coach or Gucci . Phone ? Bag ? Both ? argh !

2010-01-14T22:31:00.000+08:00

same countless phrase have been used overused and thrown out.yet some people just do not learn or bothered or just plain shitheads.dun fuckin judge or assume things u dont know.i never ever look down or degrade people.i see it differently i see that i am blessed having certain abilities that others lack off or not confident about,and with it i would wish to instill it into the person i see most potential , why let knowledge go to waste?

i come from a very very flowery loud and colorful background,yes i am proud of my unique family which i believe i never fail to say it all the time,and with this i have learn how to carry myself with different kinds of people out there.i will not choose or purposely carefully handpick my peers.i am honestly amazed how friends really really do care and adore me for me just simply being who i am.whereby at times i worry if i am not being a good enough friend to them.yes i do worry.but i am slowly realizing the fact that there are a lot of genuine friendships out there.i will not abandon a person if he or she is not able to communicate wit me well,especially when i am 24/7 mostly leaning towards English,and i admit sometimes i have trouble talking coherently in Bahasa Melayu,or that i sometimes may be at loss of certain correct Malay words,but hey! i do try my best and i will pledge teaching (basic and not my nonsensical slew of bad words) English to those who wants to improve themselves,and some even encourage me to speak to them in English although they will reply me in Melayu.so language is not a barrier ,and will not be a barrier ever.to whom it may concern,get ur fucking facts right ! and stop talking bullshit.tq

2010-01-10T19:54:00.000+08:00

been very backlogged again.so many things to update so little time.but first off...the guy dat i was initially gonna "give love a try with" is gone.just werent meant to be,though he was so far da best ever in ..... (well i will just stop here)

but anyway i have been very much newly 'in complicated' with (check my fb for further snooping) someone new.someone who says that i make the silliest stupidest best naughtiest jokes without holding anything back.someone who is so real and not shy or afraid in showing my own true self rather then being those 'control ayu' girl that he used to know and detest.hahaha..am i dat blunt ? well..i think so,but of course it follows my mood.and mr new guy is also moving into Damansara area around the same time as me.such great timing i tell ya.

ignoring the repetitive stance my colleague Lee said (which is now banging in my head) ,when my boss ask bout my boyfriend 'her bf is like maggie mee.2 minutes only.so dunno who is it now ' -translated frm Cantonese , but for now i dun wanna go by labeling anything that is not official.

apa salahnya right ? as long as i am happy.my heart can take it.i feel dat i am waay too young to really commit,and my heart will know when and who is the right person when he comes along.so for now,'lets play a lovegame' like the fame monster Gaga said.

i initially just wanna comb through this entry pasting piccies and talking bout outings.tapi hati sudah melalok ke tempat lain.

i may not be updating regularly course i have so many things to say i dunno where to start,and i hate backlogging.so please bear wit me till i settle down in my new place.anyway its official,on 27th i am moving my things wit the movers,only a day trip,course on 28th i gotta work ( da workforce management approved leave sgt tergantung) till 30th i work till 1pm,den only i will officially move out ,and i got Monday off so the 2nd February only report to work at the Caps Square office and then frm 3rd i off again for the rest of the week ! sebab i pergi Bandung.hahahha...mad schedule.

ok till my next post.i promise i will do my best to update,i will not abandon dis blog.ever.

2010-01-04T19:53:00.001+08:00

karma is an absolute bitch.but i will keep the story aside at the next post.im just so happy to post these pics up first

REUNITED !after a month.time flies.

(refer older posts-team building,my Astro Bukit Jalil's buddies)

2010-01-01T22:15:00.005+08:00

Happy 2010

to all..

!!!!~

QUICK UPDATE: no time to really update long long.heading off to KL tomorrow motning till Monday.

staying in Cititel Midvalley again-paid for by my company,woot woot ! 2 nights !

heading to check out my new KL office and my house in damansara.

looking forward to spend time wit HIM to see how far it goes.

i dunno why i chose the smallest font to type.but its ok.as long as u can read it :p

the highlight off the countdown for 2010 was that

i got a cute smack on the lips from non other than Mista DJ himself.

sigh.

i have cheated on my new boyfriend twice.with 2 different guys.

i dun think i should be in a relationship now.

but lets just see how hanging out wit him this weekend goes first.

ok,need to pack.Queen of last minute kaw2.

2009-12-27T20:07:00.002+08:00

as mentioned in few previous posts back that i will alone spending Xmas without my family. from 23rd Dec,bff Amy reached Ipoh bout 10pm at nite,and of course siapa lagi selain saya who would fetch her.and her mum had cooked up some rawrsome super late dinner cum supper for us ,plus invited my colleagues Yien & Joe along as i have introduced them and the chemistry is there.her mum made yummy kerabu glass noodle,tom yum gung,fish patties and crunchy fresh stir fry vege.sorry i lupa bawak camera.LOL.Yien pown marah me for not bringing.

halfway through dinner,Amy complained her tummy hurts so bad,we thought that maybe just normal 'angin' because empty stomach.after dinner i sent her off to stay at her cousin's house which is fucking super huge at The Dales@Tambun.we din hang out long course i had to work the next morning.supposedly i was invited over to her cousin's house course i do know her Aunty for Xmas Eve Dinner.but i slept through the evening,i wasnt able to make it.and as usual,we have booked Zero Degree to welcome Xmas 2009.and out of the blue my girlie from the girlies gang EeLee horsiekambing said she would like to join me and my colleagues clubbbin as well.so of course!i sudah 'gotta feeling' the night was gonna be a good night.and well,i was NOT disappointed,i had a fucking absoluteblast ,one of the best night out everrr in Ipoh.period.

okay i foresee quite a heavy picture posts ahead.

first off the DJs that are absolutely fun and mix great songs

@Joe ; @Yien ;@Carmen

@Shelly in blue

@EeLee

@Rene

EeLee and her Blackie

(wtf im no racist she calls him dat)

the left 3 it the usual after clubbin session gang

but was persuaded to join as well

then these started flying around

*the real couple*

case of the EX

(yes he is da DJ la)

Yik is forcing all to finish up the bottle.malas nak simpan.

much cuter shot of us!

Yik is very persistent in taking so many pics wit me

and forcing me to take shots like dis.

he is dat perasan.

while my ex was spinning,he took the mic and asked me (frm the dj console) if she is single.LOL

and her bf din even realize

den later asked her number and i had to give me a few warning looks.haha...

secocok ke?

itu dahulu we broke off ;i dumped him for a reason.he asked me an ultimate question weeks ago

and i left him hanging.

and i do seee him weekly these days.

........more pictures update in FB.

anyway after we ushered in Xmas,after 20minutes,the whole system shut down.

upon checked the whole row of clubs system were out.

TNB power failure,air cond was off,den hot !

we i walked out,the entire street full off people.

after 30 minutes later,only all system were back on,

and we continued partying in up.

to my distaste i had to work the next morning,armed wit mere 5hours of sleep,i lug myself lazily to work,

then i got a text my Bff Amy at 6am stating that she was admitted to Hospital,

i only read the text when i was at the office,immediately after work,i texted her,and she said she is at her aunts house already resting.she asked me to go over and teman her see her,she manja like dat la,i at first i cant go over as i supposedly thought that i had plans wit daddy but den last minute he din come home and also at the same time Ben texted me asking me bout her condition and asking my opinion if they should go ahead wit their plans to meet up in Penang (he was at Sipadan Island) as both lovebirds are heading to Ko Li Pe @ Thailand for a short hols before Ben fly off to UK on Jan 12 ! after that i immediately got ready and head over to see Amy to update Ben and give my stamp of approval to him if she is good enough to go.

Thank god,she was back to her old self,her Aunty said she was complaining that she was freezing her ass off shivering and her temperature shot up to 39degrees,and it seems she fainted den she was rushed to Pantai ER her temperature shot over to 40degrees or so.she slept the whole way through Christmas.poor sayang.but the important thing was she is fine.plus the fact that the entire household was partying it up HARRDDD on xmas eve,thank god there are some not drunk or passed out who were able to send her.course her aunts and cousins were craxy mad drunk passed out vomitting all over.yea her family clan is that wild.lol.and it seems a few speakers all over the house bursts sudah.anyway i spent my Xmas working,and later after work i spent in at Amy's cousins house wit her side of family who are very welcoming and they so remind me of my side of family when there is a huuugggee family gathering.and like just like them our families are all mixed,malay chinese indian eurasion.semua ada.no wonder me and her plus her families can get along soo weellll.

and yes.speaking of family gathering,Michelle have uploaded the beachy 'Christmas on the Island' pics,and i couldnt resist to show you my family.i am proud being mixed clan.

my big brother Daim,and adik Irwan plus the 3 sisters,mum in black,aunty theresa and aunty Mary

my lil nephews chubby Nicholas,skinny Sean and Ashley

that is my other nephew Ryan wit daddy cousin Dillon and in bikini wifey Shea Lyn,Michelle and Sean

cousin Dillon wit his kids,wide smile Ryan and blur Kyle

cousin Fiona (mom of the 3 kids in the 2nd pic from above) and Michelle

my BANDUNG gang!

one more nephew,Haarshaan!

Fiona,Michelle,Aunty Theresa,Aunty Noami (another sister) ,Aunty Mary,cousin Sangeta and behind her hubby Naren

cousin Sangeta ,wit my mummy ,baby Haarshaan,Shea Lyn wit Kyle

parrty hats! i waannt!

the infamous Samy sisters

omg my mummy pakai so ugly, aunty Naomi,Aunty Theresa and Aunty Mary

note :same mother same father k! cz some ppl dun believe

my mummy's birthday falls on the 26th Dec,they surprised her wit this.

and Uncle Loh,belanja crabs and all for dinner..iisshh..

yes my mummy is 51 ! but she tells people she is in the late 30s and they believe!!

my tembam abang nak suap tapi mcm tak nak suap je.

brotherly love.so cuutte!

and the ultimate picture

everyone !

the M.A Samy clan.

macam2 ada.

except for me and another cousin Sivananthan.

rasa mcm nak photoshop muka me and Siva dalam je to make it complete.

both of us did not make it due to work obligations.

but i am glad everyone had fun.and cz Aunty Mary and Uncle Ignatius knows the owner of the resort they stayed,they have booked again for XMAS 2010.which again damn fucking sadly i CANNOT make it as well.

and this time even our family very super close frens likerealfamilyalready are coming along as well,Aunty Jennifer,Aunty Christina,Danny Beh and maybe Aunty Yvonne as well.

apakan daya.Astro,macam2 ada tu la.

next up New Year 2010 !!

2009-12-27T01:23:00.000+08:00

honestly part of me wants to be tied down,and the other part of me wants to be as free as possible.im very torn of what i really really want.Joe tells me to not waste time and be free,it saves both party,where one getting hurt and the other one feeling guilty all the time for being such a sinful partner.well lucky guess which is which.i feel that i am not into looking for Mr Right or even Mr Right Now.what i know now is that i am incapable of loving someone wholeheartedly.

i dunno how do i tell him this.without hurting him.and plus da fact that he just discharged frm Prince Court after being admitted for a week,and had major surgery,and that he wants to drive down to Ipoh all da way straight after to see me which Thank God didnt happen as these few days have been very hectic for me here.(will update in next entry,i wanna dwell being emo first) i will not have time for him,which will hurt him even mooorree.

fucking hell i wanna rant about something course i know this "someone" do drop by my blog.
you were straight up lying to my face saying that u broke off the engagement with her.i remember clearly that you said u have no feelings whatsoever towards her anymore.and there she goes updating her status and uploading having a cozy recent dinner wit you.wtf man! come on,why do u need to lie to me when i already mentioned i know her!plus the fact that i have beef wit her fucking other family members.argh ! i have nothing against her,but i feel sorry for her.sigh.and you can forget bout the 'hookup'.thanks.

well, i cant give in to guys 100% course there are so many shady douchebags around these days you dont know who is fooling / messing with you.play it smart.that is the reason why i hookup wit multiple guys as we ladies too can play the game.its the best way to not get hurt,have fun with no strings attached.true? as long as be honest on your intentions i can take it.dun lie to my face and fucking get caught later.

i am just trying to be happy.

2009-12-20T22:03:00.006+08:00

hey.i always will not have the mood to click the 'new post' unless i start blog hoppin to get me pumpin.last night again went clubbin wit the normal gang of colleagues,headed to Zero Degree again.would like to clarify that i go to Zero more less weekly not because my ex boyfriend (whom still is (dot) (dot) (dot) lets not go there ) is one of the resident DJ's of the two but its course they do get the place quite hyped up ,but yesterday it was packed like in Bar room already -__-

and just that evening i was facebooking received a friend request from a new club called Lush,and found out that the location is just few doors away frm Zero,i decided to drop in at the last minute before heading home last night,seeing that my friend Suren is the resident DJ there.Lush is quite a nice spot as well,but i did complained to Suren regarding the air cond though,and he informed me that they are getting it sorted out before Xmas Eve.and speaking off,Shelly (clubbin kaki) have booked a table at Zero on the coming 24th,and i will be bringing Amy along.yeap my girl is coming home for few days,and still very bitterly repeating my entire family clan my mum's side have book a 3 days 2 night stay at some resort or hotel at Pangkor for Xmas getaway.all going except for me due to my work commitment and also i cant take Xmas leave as i am not in the quota to be allowed to.its so discriminating for spawns who are from mix marriages.i embrace all the celerbations,be it the Raya ,Chinese New Year,Deepavali and Christmas !

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ok like i previously mentioned i will starting my New Year wishlist of things i am gonna do / or seriously considering in doing :

obviously at the top of my list is the BlackBerry Bold 9000

heading off the Bandung reaall soon.factory outlets here i come !

Amy just told me that we are going to Bangkok wit another girl friend Zie in June 2010

(my birthday month!)

a new set of rims for my car.not exactly as above but the colour and concept is most likely

blossom my love affairs dividing time on monthly dates

i have thought really long and hard,and decide to pursue in purchasing the fuss free
Canon Ixus 120IS
(very TORN between the 2 colours)
anyone interested to buy my Canon Ixus 80IS which is bout 1+ years old (purchase date on 13/11/08)
please leave me a comment.thanks!

more of this !

i leave it to your understanding or interpretation.

more loving to others and lotsa tolerance and respect

especially towards my new housemate

and less

and most definately

purpose of the above meant that need to

'Party Responsibly' !!

i can not and will not have another relapse!

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i am abruptly stopping da list course its sums up to more less what i am looking forward to 2010

2009-12-18T21:51:00.003+08:00

rasa macam agak lama tak update my blog properly.have been spending way too much dough lately.my head hurts counting how much i have used in such a short span of time.i have more less settled things that are related to my new room expenses.so one big prob solved.i am currently in the process of cleaning out my closet,i threw away so many bras and useless items that are taking up space.i bought 6 brand new lovely lacy pieces to replace em,and 3 leggings.i love leggings.period.i entered MNG and i just had to get the bag i was lusting for since ages.and i bought 2 more other bags of the same colour and pattern where i gave to mum for her early birthday gift since she was lusting for the bag as well.

omg im sure u people have seen the new Nokia,touch screen phone wit interchangeable covers which costs bout rm800+ ? sorry i dunno the model hence the long explanation.wow i am kinda drawn towards it.lol.anyway i am still very keen in getting my Blackberry Bold really soon ! just dat i am now very much undecided between Bold or Javelin as the latter sounds so promising except its without 3G ! HEELP!!

I am seriously thinking of selling off my camera Canon Ixus 80IS (any buyers?used for bout 1 year + ) .i am leaning towards a better model ,and now im considering the Canon Poweshot S90 (but its super headache to use,need to really learn it well but once gotten the hang of it,it will be mad exciting!) or fuss free Canon Ixus 120IS

well i love gadgets dont i ? lol..

k i will continue on on next posts on my 2010 wish list (yeap gonna skip Xmas one.lol)

2009-12-13T22:21:00.004+08:00

lately i have been keeping myself busy as i previously mentioned.

and i am autohigh without booze these days.i have progressed so much.my normal 'kakis' said that its amazing,as i get as crazy as i f i was really tipsy.

(more pics in FB)

5 hours later

sleepy zombie -_- forced to attend some kenduri kahwin yg sucks sangat plus panas terik gilers!

tapi chomel tetap maintain kan ?

(wtf ! puji diri sendiri..kekek)

daddy started talking bout marriage.

i flatly tell him,not in another 10 years.

he said "jodoh di tangan tuhan"

i answered "how will we know if its the ONE for u?"

i asked him,kindly to stop talking bout the topic.

firstly,i am only slowly opening up my heart again,i dun wanna think of something so drastically as this.

secondly i hope what i have wit him now its something sustainable.u see i said 'hope'

so it very well shows that i am not wholeheartedly into the relationship thing yet,and highly still doubtful of certain things .

lastly,i am still not able to let go and still holding on to a few anak-anak ikan,

and still on-off flirting wit some.

farrah will always be farrah eh?

LOL

and for now,i am focusing on my career ,shopping (wow can focus also) and getting things that i want from my own dough ! [like i always tell em "i am an independent woman" - cues in Jamie Foxx's 'She Got Her Own' which is my life's soundtrack]

being happy

mixing around wit people who cares [vice versa]

and

rest as much as possible

its my que to exit

im sleepy

bloated wit cempedak

omg farts! [so shameless,i know!]

kthxbye

♥

2009-12-10T21:34:00.002+08:00

so many people have stepped forward and sincerely congratulating me for choosing to be in a relationship,i was very much suprised that a lot wants to see me happy.the thing is,its still so new and raw.and this time,i am very much guarding my heart.and like i have mentioned to a few,i am giving him a chance and in a way giving and letting myself getting loved ,sayang,adored in return.i learned so much from da prev asshole.i shud never ever let a guy take over my life ,and will not give a 100% .we girls gotta play it smart.although some objected stating that i should not waste time wit him or dat i shud not lead him on or break his heart as they claim i will not change back to being a one man woman (haha..sound so wrong) but,no harm right?giving it a chance.if not one will never know.its such a very early stage now,to some i refer him as my "fren" still..LOL so i will not dwell much into talking bout him till the appropriate time comes.

Honestly no kidding im typing this entry using the tiniest font possible via mobile as im lounging on the bed,off to sleep and its barely even 10.00pm !

2009-12-09T20:32:00.006+08:00

i have found a new love.i am giving it a try and open my heart one more time.i need time to readjust myself.but i am trying my best.plus the fact that i will be much closer to him next year.i will reveal when the time comes.for now fingers crossed and hope that it will flourish course i am not the one falling hard yet.

sorry for being a bad blogger its just so much is goin on,i think i left out bout 3 paarty posts , a trip to Lost World (again) , plus another party tis coming Friday.keeping myself busy as possible wit my fellow Ipoh frens before the big move,as i will be so separated from them :(

i shall be on hiatus for awhile again till i sort out all that i need to.

2009-12-06T18:19:00.002+08:00

the bitch is back

2009-11-30T21:53:00.001+08:00

i think i am plunging into an emo post now.i just feel so down and quite undecided on certain situations ,and going thru some ' too good to be true' phase as well.i am a pessimistic person ,though i try hard to be optimistic.its so confusing.Amy is doing furniture and appliances window shopping and invoice listing for my stamp of approval .and all i do is transfer dough to her.she is such a sweetheart i tell you ,like she said hard labour konon..haha..but yea i need to get organised sooon ! its december already and by late January i need to wipe out my current room and lug them all to kl,and on top of dat i find myself contemplating on which Astro office i wish to report to ;Bukit Jalil or Capsquare.i was at first dead on reporting to KL office then the last team building really made me realize that i have faarrrr more friends in Bukit Jalil compare to the latter.but then i have given Amy my word and we have plan so much to settle down together.so i do not want to let her down as it took us such a long journey to get back to where we are now and i dont wanna ruin it.plus KL office is alright i do have a few friends there too,plus both offices always collaborate in having events so its not like i dun see dem at all,heck we are emailing everyday even when im here in Ipoh and facebook ! hehehe..phew now i realize its not as that bad as it seems. :)

my wonderful brother decided to follow dad back to KL and left his car,and will only arrive home at 3am!as in i gotta fetch him frm the station.iddioottss betul,da la i weekday serious macam zombie and too lazy to function except in the office je.

anyway these are some of the staffs and close colleagues frm Ipoh office who went to the team building

my ruthless but fun boss next to me,on my right.

2009-11-29T12:13:00.005+08:00

backlogged to the core.3 weekends ago followed my colleagues to Gentings for a day trip.have not been der for aggeeessss.and i hereby proclaimed i hate to play any game in the theme parks.

i will just be a photog .thank you.

i took a gazillion pictures but feel so pai seh to upload like tourist liddat wtf !

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the following weekend later,head off to KL for the team building,whereby we were put up in Cititel Midvalley instead of the earlier planned,but not complaining,much prefer Cititel then PJ Hilton.easy access to guy oggling and shopping.well not that i bought any.before checked in we headed to OU first for lunch and ber forever 21 and ber dorothy perkins.i fooorrggggggooooot to check out Cotton On der..dayymmmn it! was whisked away at OU by bff Amy and Ben.those 2 eat like hooorrssee and those 2 dun get fat ! fucking jealous.Ben dropped me off at the hotel,and Amy darling tagged along together.we basically just chilled at the room watching Discovery Channel (so intellectual liddat!),together went down for dinner wit my other colleagues ,as usual half way thru had some argument wit Ben,so killed her mood to do anything.poorrr meeee cannot cuci mata,have to teman bff back to the roommm..bumped into Pui Yun and also another fren Zaki at Gardens who was a lil bluuurred at first i din bother to greet him,till he sent me a wall post in FB to inform that it took him awhile to register my name.he said suddenly blank.wtf !

Ben was gonna be late as he had some family thing which Amy did not joined,so my roomie was Joe dear,so all 3 of us in the end watched the premiere of Twilight @ Star Movies.hahah..the whoole show.

and yea yea New Moon was shitznit.team Taylor (i think.so many ask me i said i dun choose as i like the idea of the saga!)

5am wake up call to get ready ,head to Astro Bukit Jalil and assembled there.in total there were about 140+ staffs in the last batch to attend the Team Building or aptly named MADnESS camp

(M.A.D =making a difference)

i admit that i at first were a lil scared to attend plus the Ipoh side are about only 11 people out of the whole lot.but boy was i wrong i met up old friends,made absolutely fabulously gay boys and girls who sama kepala as me.i miss all soo much now.i actuallly kinda abandoned my Ipoh mates and they keep on telling me to stop saying im shy as prior the the camp i keep on telling them i sure will not be happy course im very shy to mix around but they see how i mingle about made say 'now i know whats ur definition of shy' hahaha....my boss who is also an AVP and my Team Manager whom i always mentioned her being ruthless but fun at the same time,said 'i ckp tak serupa bikin'

i mean yea.i need to rephrase my shyness statement

'i am shy around straight men' wtf !~ but not all ! hahah i dunno la.i know im deep down quite shy even Amy seconds that.but it depends i guess.

anyway Team Building was so fun and unforgettable.

batch 5 was the best everrr..

the best part was the 'Pow Pow' session,its a thai dance.where 1 guy frm each team have perform and improvise own steps and do the 'Pow Pow'! link ere just so u get the idea.though he was the winner but others were more provocative.kekekeke..

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dinner at Vietnam House @OU

fascinated that Cititel windows double up as mirrors at night.

note :good for sex

Corus Paradise Resort,view from hotel room.toilet was shitty

session 5 ! pls dun spot me.

my team Vannavil was in top 5 placing out of 12 teams who compete !

the cute boy behind me,Rizal is soooo adorably gay.while we were at the open dance floor he said

'first time dance dengan slipper'

kalau i pakai heels bukan 3 inci !! 5 inci ok! ' hahah soo cuutte

and his funniest quote : 'sgt susah nak cari boyfren supermodel untuk i'

Nana,sama kepala ! i miss her so much ,she gave me a title "Mak Hayyaaammm'

i ni nampak cam mak ayam ke?tapi betul jugak kekadang nye..haha

us 3.meletops.below is Susu

and since did not manage to snap a complete pic,these are the people whom i miss the mooosst

these 3 are from the Bukit Jalil office

Rizal is so effin diva

Riez mak hayam super! haha...we call him kakak..

if u read thru my annual dinner post ,he was the Chinese ghost

Susu another kakak !!

Nana !

sorry i shall not post my one,it turned out sooo uggly..eeewww

some of the facilitators from RCJ Consultant.

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p/s :at the end of all this,all staffs got an MP3 player!woot woot.i is illiterate when it comes to Mp3 thats why i never buy em,but since its free.i am forced to learn!so easy wan ah?wtf bimbo.kekeke..

2009-11-27T12:06:00.000+08:00

This is to all who is backlashing me from behind.

you have no right to judge the way i live.you know nuts about my upbringing and my family.every person have got a right to choose the way they live.i can list down more than 10 people who is like me or in my lifestyle.i am not saying i condone what i do and spreading it to other 'innocent' soul..i choose to be open about everything i do and not be a hypocrite.what is a purpose of having a blog if one cant reveal his / her own true self for others?
i am not offended at all.that is how u see it.its up to u.fuck hell i dun care.if u do not like to read the way i live or me being myself,then please just dont link me then.i am blogging for myself and for friends and random strangers who loves blog hopping.dun worry i am not worrying bout my traffic at all,cz i dun care at all bout all that.

signed wit kisses,your toxic blogger Fafa

2009-11-21T22:36:00.003+08:00

dear all.i am goin off the radar for awhile till i fully cured my anti-blogging disease.thanks.much love.contact me in my FB.muakhxiies.

2009-11-11T21:02:00.000+08:00

for the last 2 weeks,a few of my close friends are pressuring me the same thing.they asking me when am i going to settle down wit 1 guy.course i have scandaling around introducing different guys all the time.well.honestly speaking i am no where near ready to open up my heart to love again.i admit my last toxic relationship left me so bruised and unsure of myself in the love department.i know,i cant handle another nasty drama breakup,and invest emotionally and mentally over the male specimens for the time being.

i have been in these game far too long to more less understand men.i dun dare say i know all men generallly or as a whole but just men dat attracts me and vice versa.i know their game,so i play it smart.sama-sama happy hati tak sakit.

if men cheat ? why women cant ? i dun fucking get this concept.for some if men cheat its normal,but for women to do so,she's a fucking whore.

even when i am in between men,i lie to some and say im not seeing anyone else,but at times i just tell the truth.to me,i dun see why do i need to be answerable to them,when i clearly know that what we have aint going far.i admit i may use men for my own satisfaction.i have a phonebook burst full of them.as long as i am not done wit the game,i'mma be having my fun.

i am a LOUD person,whoever have my Facebook account knows that my status updates are no holds barred,and sometimes really towards sexuality . but i am comfortable discussing anything.i am a sexual person.there is nothing wrong wit it is there? stop being fickle minded and broaden up your mind.

at times i feel that i need to hide part of my true self in front of certain friends,as i feel that they cant handle the real me.the truth.the dirrty.the notty.the parrty. (just feel like rhyming.but yea u get wat i mean right?) , but slowly i am opening up to some,course FUCK IT if some of you cant accept the real me,then your not my real friend after all.

i am generally a damn nice person.it even sickens me at times.if people come to me for help,i will help with the best of my ability and go all out.i like to accommodate others and see them happy as the result.i am not pleasing anyone,i just HAD to so that he / she is comfortable or happy or thankful , although at times i may not like it,but i just do not like to let others down.some commented i am too sweet to some who had created lotsa shit for me before,but i have no answer to that.i am nice wit an open heart just expecting an honest friendship back.

sometimes i dont understand myself.i always prefer to get hurt by others rather than me hurting their feelings.i have been on several situations where i had to practice "cruel to be kind" but in the end it left me feeling sooo bad and guilty.

i started this post wit no purpose or direction,i just feel like addressing others how i feel .and who i really am.

2009-11-10T23:02:00.002+08:00

after much blog hopping i suddenly got the itch to update . but im not really sure as to where to start,so just will head straight to my company's Annual Dinner.it was a great success and this time around is waaay better then last year's Masquerade Ball.Coincidently it was on Halloween night itself.so no need to guess the theme of the night.anyway throwing in pics and story along the way

some of the "ghost" there were a heck lot !

after party

won lucky draw.a lamp!

wit my best friends and 'teman tapi mesra'

@ Cloth & Cleft ;Changkat Bukit Bintang

Farish Daniel

back at hotel 5.30am , wakeup call at 8.50am !!

@Impiana's Pool

i asked my girlie to take over the wheel to drive us home back to Ipoh,after hanging out at Pavi and Sg Wang for the rest of the day.i went crazy at Cotton On!

on 22nd going down again!! this time we will be put up at Hilton for a night,den head to Astro Bukit Jalil at 6.15am! by 6.30 leave for Corus Paradise Resort PD for 2 days off team building session !

2009-11-10T21:37:00.000+08:00

currently on a long hiatus for awhile.too much going on lately to update.sorry you guys.

2009-10-27T19:09:00.008+08:00

officially actively and very semangat-ly (adakah perkataan itu?) persuing for this

Blackberry Bold 9000

~~say no to Curve~~

2009-10-25T21:49:00.000+08:00

gosh time flies by sooner than you think.late January i will be moving.and i have soooooooooooooo many things on my mind right now !!!!!!

next weekend is the Annual dinner @ KL convention centre,and it is 80% confirmed that we will be staying in Impiana KLCC . i have this really nice dress from Dorothy Perkins,i adore it course its not a formal dress.but i have no heels to go wit it,BUT i have a pair of ballet flats that is the same colour as the dress (not overbearing ,i checked) so i might possibly wear flats.such horror for a si pendek like me.but comfort first and foremost ! plus Impiana is opposite convention centre so surely we just walk over! wtf i dun care.now the headache part is,the after party thingy,where as u go in groups,everyone sure wanna do own things or expect me to make plans.i dun mind,but its annoying that some cant make up their mind ! im contented enough meeting up wit Amy & Ben and teman tapi mesra Farish.so the after party plans its sooo hazy,i am kinda in a verge of just making my own plans and be done.seriously! and then comes the debate over Sunday plans.lol.so funnnnny but i stepped my foot down and said that the best is the whole BB area,as there is a few malls there,its enough and easy to exit to highway back to Ipoh.yes i am driving down to KL !! 3 cars back to back wit my ladyboss bersama !

as previous entry stated,i need to report to work on 1st Feb at the new office,and to my horror Michelle kinda ~~nearly blasted~~ to me that our Bandung trip is on the 3rd of February!! omg !!! but im 85% sure that i will be able to go,as its not my fucking fault the company decides to relocate the a different state at that time,as bookings are all advanced right !! plus i have bookings confirmation and all as proof,they cant fucking bar me ! as i am still working for the same department and division!!!!!! but i am still kinda stressed course Workforce Team (which handles all our schedules ,leaves and meal breaks!) are unpredictable!! but think positive, me and Mich decide to settle the passports only in January.

since we are also provided movers ,so i decided to scout around for my bedroom set in Ipoh instead of KL.no i checked IKEA 2010 catalogue,the best ones i adore are the most expensive.so i rather be thrifty and spend it ere,course there some really nice ones here as well.and much cheaper costs!~~more money for shopping~~ .and i am so glad that the apartment in Pelangi is very well equipped wit all the necessities except for my empty room! -___-

here are the reasons why Amy thinks i will be the best housemate EVER ~~(REVERSE PSYCHOLOGY)~~

course i will cook for us mostly (she sucks at cooking..hmm..kinda except maybe instant pre pack stuffs or mixing nestum + condensed milk for comfort food.yes so yucky right!eeewww) , plus she knows i love to masak2 as well,so ambik advantage kot.and i might go to extremes by packing up bento boxes for us for lunch at the office.i said i MIGHT only Amy :p
she dont need to be all nice or fake among strangers in the house if she get a new housemate replacement instead of me!
she THINKS that i will paint the house wit her.well i already flatout scraped that idea off her head unless she hire a professional or someone fit for the job
Bff Ben will be leaving for UK in January she is glad that i will be there for her,jaga her.yes Amy can be a big big ~~heavy~~ baby sometimes if she is around people she knows loves her!
she is the one girl who GETS me.gets my ways and understand my needs (no pun intended) so she knows she will be my best housemate ever!!
plus we are best friends for 15 years,plus minus the ups and downs,we are most comfortable wit each other around.so who can be a better housemate than your best friend :) (Aww i see u smiling ,the big wiiidde smile Amy)

we were briefed bout our attire ,it seems kena dress smarter abit ,so i need to kinda shop for more smart casuals office attires also.so mafan la,Ipoh office not strict in that area at all !! and it seems cannot colour hair to the extreme.i believe my hair is not that extreme right?? whatever i dun care! dun like,den pay me to colour a softer shade la ! wtf

2010 is gonna be a year that i start over and build my life more independantly.and most importantly finally being where i see myself to be few years ago.and what better way to do it,working with a great and influential company and having my best friend as a housemate.i will not screw this up.i make sure of it.

2009-10-22T21:16:00.001+08:00

i have just received major news regarding my job in Astro.no worries the job is still secured.but the Ipoh centre (as in hidden call centre not the customer service centre) is gonna close down and we are ask to relocate to KL . given option to choose between the centre in Caps Square or a brand new centre in Mines.plus whoever agrees to relocate will be given lump sum of RM3K (for relocation purposes) + RM500 monthly for a year (for lodging).that is about RM9K just to relocate to KL !!

i jumped right to it,as i do not want to waste my knowledge that i have gained so much working for Astro and let it just burned,plus i do not think i am able to get such a good paying and very sustainable job ever.fyi,remember my hospitalized drama ? my bill came up to bout RM12K and all paid for by Astro.
yes the hecticness the drama the politics.tapi,company mana u keje akan relax right?

so i am definately goin no matter,and i have (soo damn hard) finally convinced mum that i will stay wit my Amy my best friend in the whole wide world.just so happens,she needed a new housemate as well..i believe all these things happen for a reason and perfect timing for me to rebuild myself.plus she is the only fren that is the most comfortable to live in,as we have been at it for years on off.

i have not returned to work yet,i was informed by my boss.on Saturday when i return,i will know the whole story.no matter what,Ipoh center will be shut down.and who ever relocates have to report to work on Feb 2010 to chosen centers.

fingers crossed,hoping it all goes well

2009-10-16T19:48:00.000+08:00

today went for follow up again at Pantai Hospital,and bloood test again! god ! i already sgt jelak gettin cucuk at the SAME place over and over again.i think i had more less 10 blood test since admitted.my main GP Dr Kathleen has written me off today as fully recovered and no more appointments with her anymore ! yay ( i secretly do not like her much) and next i need to see my favourite doc,which is the Heart Specialist ;Dr Inderjit (who is the best doc i have ever had in my life !) my blood test is for some renal thing,and he says my BP today is more less at border line 120/90 with the help of 3 BP medications i am taking now.i need to continue my BP medication for awhile and Dr will monitor.if i am not able to control my BP without meds,then im on meds for life.i am asked to reduce my stress level.but goin back to work next Saturday worries me.i can assure you my inbox would be nearly 1000++ emails !! plus i will be thrown back to the normal whirlwind of work without a breather for sure.but yea,i need to be positive and dun think too much.

it took me awhile to really dawned on me.i fought for my life to live on 27th September 2009 . and again just now Dr Inderjit stressed to me on the said date,that night in the isolated ICU ward,when he first came to check on me,he said i was in a very very very bad shape that night,i was nearly put on a machine to breathe,but i managed to pull through.and he said one more thing that have been on my mind since

"it can happen to you before,it can happen to you again"

i have a loong way to go in LIFE.i am only 22.I have a secured job,i own a car,everything i do or have are all paid for by my hard earned money.i can proudly say i am an independant woman.i am still not ready to leave this world.i have not find THE ONE yet.~~i have not had sex for awhile and its killing me.~~ i have so much more i want to do.i know i can go far in Astro if i put in more good years into it,which i can confidently say i will do my best as so far my 2 years 2months with this company have mould to be some one i am proud off workwise.i own my life.so i need to be positive and do things right.

as i was admitted at night,the following morning my mum whom i have not been on talking terms wit even before Raya came to visit me early in the morning (she was not informed i was taken to ER that night as i went straight to daddy) .she asked me the ultimate question.

"From now on,you have to stop ur smoking and drinking already.Yes you can go ahead going out with your friends still,clubbing and all.but you cannot touch those things anymore."

i snubbed at her at first course i was still moody and thought of the not-talking-to-you term where i did not wanna breakdown. till she came nearer to me and said

"Promise me this.you have to promise me.i beg you please"

i nod my head and uttered my agreement.since then she never bugged me of the question and i am keeping my end of the promise.i shall still go out and have my fun,but without booze and smoke.i love to go out for the music and dance.so i am pretty sure i can adapt to this.plus all my normal 'kakis' already know that i cant do it.Gf Amy like a big mummy saying " no more boozing for you!" and Bff Ben which im like his honorary drinking kaki,also said he's gonna fix me up wit some tea instead ! so yea,people who care for her knows what they are in for,they know how they need to lookout for me.Just like Su Yen and Michelle do when it comes to food and my cravings.i appreacite all of it.i am thankful and i love you all to bits.

2009-10-13T12:51:00.001+08:00

its been awhile since my last post.i am on homerest till the 23rd October.so my days spent facebooking and sleeping mostly.and i decided to go out and "breathe the air" last weekend.though it was a fruitful weekend but very tiring for me nontheless.i still have not fully gained back my energy as doctors claimed i need some time for my body to fully recover.

Saturday evening,headed over to Eeja's place to fetch Fatin and her over to Q's open house all the way in Meru.knowing that i cannot drive that long distance as off yet,i offered my keys to Fatin to drive instead.we were there for few hours just eating,but i had to sukat-sukat a bit my food to avoid food intake that is not permissable for me due to my condition now.honestly i din really talked much to Q ,so nothing much to share.and after Q's we headed to meet my friend Izwan hang out for while,then headed over to Old Town for some webcamming sessions,where i met Mimi as in my highskool junior,we catched up for awhile,i snapped a pic wit her but its missing in my camera,damn it and i deleted the whole folder already!

look at those eyebags.tired eyes.

Sunday's plan was going to Ee Lee's stables in turf club where the tended the horses diet and i-dunno-what-she-does-wit-the-tread-mill-and-the-horses .she loves her job so much course she loves horses.so we were given a "grand tour" around the stables.im personally scared of horses to yea i kept my distance.its funny seeing Michelle and Su Yen trying to snap pics wit the horses but scared at the same time.

the thread mill

her old kerepot horse .i forgot its name.

she single handedly do this everyday.the horses lunch and dinner

wit some specific diets

after the horses,Ee Lee decided to head over to Kellie's Castle at Batu Gajah .as we all never been there before,except for Su Yen.its just an unfinished castle.but its still endearing to look at.sadly i only mingle about the the lower castle grounds as i know i dun have the strenght yet to climb up the steps. while the others climb up,i just was sitting on the grass ~~facebooking~~ .

camwhore alone

perfect shot of us

more castle pics in my facebook.tak larat eyh nak upload semua.

i nearly died at the age of 22 (updated)

2009-10-03T19:42:00.006+08:00

dear all,

just drop in for a quickie.some of u may know,and i know most are uncertain,or do not have any idea.i was admitted to ICU Pantai Putri on the 27th September ,i was as doctor quoted on the verge of death if i had not burst into ER on time.my BP shot up to over 220/140.i was in ICU from the Sunday night till Wednesday morning,then was transfered to normal ward.during this period,i was strapped on the bed,wit IV's on my right,and BP and oxygen tracking thingy on my left.i was at first fully dependant on oxygen,where day to day docs lower down the intake to let me breath by my own slowly.and yes i was bedridden wit pee bag and all.omg,dun get me started wit the pee bag,its the most horrible experience ever.and not comfortable,and it numbs u so u dunno when ur peeing.i was under observation till today,Saturday 031009 i was just discharged on my bed typing this,and yes i insisted the pee bag removed on Thursday and i slowly learned to walk on my own,but super dizzy.imagine,i went on 2 x rays and a CT scan bed ridden,it was horrible.i was told that GOD had spared my life.i am so thankful and grateful for everyone who came and visit,especially my biatches,Michelle,Ee Lee and Su Yen & Wai Kwan and my office colleagues.beautiful arrangements of flowers and fruits and a super long but cryptic letter (by Ee Lee) really cheered me up.the girly conversations we had on my hospital bed was unforgettable.

i was diagnosed wit hypertension,BP and i had pneumonia,lung infection,plus a few more problem which i tink i might not type here to scare u.

i learn that i need to slowly change my lifestyle.but not entirely.i really need support from my friends and family to push me to get better.

ok till later.

some pics that was snapped

2009-09-26T09:43:00.013+08:00

today marked that its been a week mum and i are not on speaking terms.honestly speaking,i feel its much better and healthier environment now at home due to lack of shouting screaming and slamming doors.i dun care what u people say,but i feel much at peace now.i dun get angsty dat much anymore.anyway Raya dis year have been super mellow.but its ok,i had fun doing other stuffs,which led me to fall soo sick on Thursday night till i cant breathe steadily which led me to the doctor,who told me i had mild ashtma ,fever,cough and sore throat.i was given 2 days MC.i hate gettin MC as i would effect my performance at work,but i had to,i cant barely function well.even to sleep took me forever to adjust and readjust myself to get comfortable.and hopefully by Monday everything is fine,as i so need to go back to office and i can imagine overbursting inbox wit 1 week's worth of emails. plus is my gf,Ee Lee's birthday ! she planned a karaoke night for us gfs'.and we already got her gifts,Su is baking and Ee Lee insist on a theme nightout where all if us have to wear hoodies ! i protested,cz the hoodie i ever owned is da one i wear during demam,its baggy and not stylish! i relented and say i would wear it for picture taking den off it goes.

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so here goes bits and pieces of Raya posts.

Raya Eve
had a great night out wit colleagues to Barroom and later for last 30minutes of so before all clubs close at 3,we headed to Grayyer (new place beside Barrom) ,personally to me Barroom is one of the best in Ipoh,scratch that,the only one that is best in Ipoh.it has soo much potential,if only the bosses would expand the place,course its forever and ever super packed.met ex classmates and skool mates and some ppl i used to know there.and having them come over and wish me 'Selamat Hari Raya' out of the blue kinda made me feel akward and the fact that its Raya the next day.LOL.

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Raya day 1

after coming home at bout 3.30pm and slept at 4 ,i was rudely woken up at 8.50 am to be percise.WTF ! but yea i knew i had to wake up that early.thank god i wasnt drunk. so no hangover to nurse.this year,i drove my car back to kampung,as daddy had smashed his BMW at Rawang highway on last Wednesday ,the car spinned outta control as it was raining and the water level was a bit high,slightly banjir,it seems the 5 series nearly total loss.but yea thank GOD he is okay and able to beraya wit us.
so yes ! i who had less then 5 hr sleep drove back to hometown wit daddy and lil brother in tow.
mum and elder bro did not make it,as elder bro was sick.

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Syawal 2

as usual,ex Michaelian classmate Mubarak will host open house ,like last year,guest list and attendees are more less the same plus minus a few missing souls.and like last year again me and Iejat had the same drama,though this year i thought things would be different course privately we do talk to each other,and all when its face to face the shyness gloom over me and him,though constantly teased by others.so yea sadly i din get a pic wit him.but the idiot brought a DSLR and took shots of us me.
after hanging out in Barak's place a few of us left for Old town Kopitiam to continue catching up.

*the reason why i was holding a butterfly pillow course its mine,it belongs to my car,where right in front of my nose in Barak's house the boys stole it frm me,and gave me back after the kopitiam session and claimed that its a gift frm them.thats how funny and sneaky they can be,years since i left SMI but we are all trying out best sustaining this friendship*
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Syawal 3

had an 8.30 am date with my girls.we wanted to have American Bfast in David's Diner but was closed,then wanted Dim Sum@Foh Sun but its as usual super duper duper packed den we decided to head to old town,Kong Heng for a hearty brunch,of chee cheong fun,popiah,sotong kangkung,satay and the famous caramel custard.
no foodie pics,it was too early in the morning for me,plus i was kinda angry wit myself for wearing super high wedges when i knew the girls wanted a day out around Ipoh town snapping pics.
after that,did a "tour" around 'Little India' and our train station.den off to race course wanted to search for other gf,Ee Lee who works at the stables. but unable to ,so we headed off to Polo

after that headed to Sunway as Su Yen have yet to enter it,so she wanted pics of the entrance and all.den we headed back to Mich's place,where i quickly changed my shoes luckily i always keep a spare in my car whenever im in heels.the we made last minute changes and decided to have a movie marathon plus Wai Kwan as well who later joined, since its still early and had accomplished so much already,we watched 'The Ugly Truth' & 'G Force'
after the movies,was just nice to have and early dinner,6.30pm actually,Ee Lee darling also tagged along for dinner.so yea our Ipoh gang is kinda complete.
so yea..the usual ,had Japanese for dinner @ Kampai

it took our math whiz Mich a good 15 minutes to divide ; even Ee Lee said her horsie (as in because she works with horses..lol) brain hurts.

one more,this is Ee Lee's moment ( as usual background voice is yours truly)

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Syawal 4

had a mellow day in,till i got an open house invitation by gf Eeja,so went to her house at 3.30pm and only left bout 8 something at night,the day went by sooo fast.had great conversations wit her mum,which is quite suprising.and just chill,got to know Miera her lil sis too.she's chill.

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after all that,yours truly have fallen sick.

2009-09-24T11:29:00.001+08:00

on hiatus for a while.too much to update.currently not feeling well.and having heart aches as well

everytime i am feeling blue,

2009-09-17T20:27:00.003+08:00

this would always cheer me up,when i hop on the this lovely blog
hoping for a new update,this is really creative cute and funny,there are a lot more lovely sketch pieces in the link above.i just pasted these to promote this milky tooth blog,and please do go on the link.

Can I Take Your Message, Please?

RING, RING!!!

ickle, the phone's ringing!

RING, RING!!!

Where are you, ickle?!

RING, RING!!!

Can anybody answer the phone??

RING, RING!!!

Okay, it's all on me now.

RING, RI-*Click*

*pant pant*

You can do it, Lardee.

Hello? Can I help you, please?

Sorry, she's not in, please.

Can I take your message, please?

Uh-huh, uh-huh...

Okay....

...

What was the number again?

Uh-huh, Uh-huh...

Okay hold on a sec, please.

...

Got it!

It was fun talking to you, please.

Bye!

Ughh.

Hey Lardee!

Was the phone ringing?

Wow, did you take a message all by yourself?

That's great! Who called?

Well Lardee, you did your best.

Splash!

Race you to the pool!

Oh man, that looks like 500 feet deep.

Cannonball!!

SPLOOSH!!

Lardee, stop hogging the ball.

Someone needs to clean this pool.

Eh, I suppose I can do it.

Oh-oh, I'm getting sucked in...

Hey, my voice sounds funny in here...

Brrr... COLD!

Let's dry off, Lardee.

Oh my.

Sweet Treats

I have a surprise for you guys!

Ice cream! Yessssss!

*slurp, slurp, slurp*

*slurp, slurp*

No, Lardee!

*slurp, slurp*

Lardee, what are you doing?

I don't wanna trade.

No.

Lardee, that's MY book. Stop, I don't wanna trade!

*slurp, slurp*

*slurp, slurp*

*sniff, sniff*

*sniff, sniff*

Okay Lardee, just one bite.

Nooooo!!!

Not cool, Lardee.

Summer : Saturday

Raya punya pasal...

2009-09-16T14:52:00.005+08:00

i finally did my shopping,as usual my tradition (hehehe..started last year only,i saje nak drama) , i will buy 2 pairs of kurungs and just like last year,i would get similar patterns,but in different colours,reasons why i chose light blue,hmm..cz mum suggested it to me weeks ago and also because,Farish's baju Melayu also is light blue !!! (kekekke....) ,and just look at how gorgeous the pink is.so sweet and lovely.but no matter how much i prefer the pink over the blue..i choose to wear the blue for first day of Raya,don't ask why,isnt it obvious.. duh!! i have been dying to get a fucking pair of comfortable and easy to wear wedges,and i finally snagged those lovely velvety comfy babies in Vincci !! new arrivals section,no discount ! sheesh..Mum also bought da same pair of wedges as mine but in dark blue,she got 10% off course of HSBC credit card,but its k,mine was an impulse buy,i scolded her for not telling me how lightweight and airy it really is if not i would have bought waaay earlier.im so contented.and oh,i headed to MNG to get myself a new wallet (again,i am always buying wallet from there only,course its cheap and chic but mum nagged also till i shut her up saying i will give her my current MNG) no sales in MNG also !! sigh.see i tak shopping sakan for Raya also.simple saje.tak lebih2..
(ignore that i just paid Lyn for the online purchases of 3 tops and a dress from her,and that the past 2 weeks i had bought 5 pairs plus the above wedges makes it 6 pairs of shoes !)

Datin ke?

2009-09-14T20:05:00.007+08:00

ok Fafa have been gone again for far too long.I am doing my best to bounce back to the blogging world. *bows graciously to all*

its been awhile,a bit rusty oh-kay. sorry la im Queen of mengadaness.over dramatic biatch.few nights ago mum and i had an argument,she said im very "par - pai (direct translation in Cantonese) *no wonder my colleagues call me a Diva*
i think it means,hmm.over the top mengada or something.what ever i dun fucking care,i am who i am la.and people love me for me ! *bluek* but seriously i am very nice loh ! just come and get to know me first la,if i dunno you i ~~might~~ snub at you.

and yes i am the very Mak Datin-like.i dunno why but i am naturally like that,i cant change myself to blend in,like OSIXNINE Yasmeen tagline "Why blend in when u can stand out" , to me i believe people should learn to adapt themselves with others in order to get along.respect and tolerance plays a much bigger role here.that is how i can get along wit so many random groups of people.

and no matter what i have my trusty GF Amy whom i heart to death,who tolerated why overzealousness of mengada 101.(she secretly enjoys it and misses it )

few minutes ago my elder brother shared something wit my mum jokingly (behind my back) and my mum quickly said,better dun say it already,you know she is "harimau campur singa" .haha..i laugh at that.i am the Queen of the household i guess.and i love it ! and we had the massive funny conversation talking about our inheritance once both of parents cuckoo.i was complaining on how little i will get.and my elder brother gets much higher percentage ! (what rule is that ! such blasphemy!)
He said enough to marry and jaga 4 wives.WTF ! den my mum told him dat he had to kill both of the parents.LOL.then i came up wit an even more brilliant plan,why dun i kill everyone and i get ALL.and mum cooly said,u will not get any if its a murder +__+

hahahaha..how random is our after buka puasa conversation ?

Raya is dis fucking Sunday ! (i dunno why i had to insert the f-word,is just blurted like dat) .i have not shopped a single thing at all.the 5 pairs of shoes i bought 2 weeks ago and a few pieces of clothes i bought frm Lyn online does not count ! i need a clutch,i am still looking for one,although my Gucci tiny boston joy bag is chic enough to replace as a clutch,but on me,it would be the cherry on the top to compliment my Datin-ness. so i WANT a clutch !!! and all the 5 pairs i bought,only one is a pair wedge but not exactly a wedge as its more beachy like.so i want to look for a gorgeous pair of wedge (im kicking myself for not buying the one i tried on in Curve,but its damn fucking tinggi !! i scared..pls dun laugh!)

and this year i am driving back to kampung ! i am excited to take lotsa scenaries and all,just to show you all how super kampung is my kampung .hehehe..but to me Raya this year,feels empty.
i dunno why,im not hyped up and in the spirit of Raya actually.but yes i need 2 pairs of kurungs definately with all the open houses and all,mak Datin kena buat appearance sana sini.LOL.im embracing the title that friends and family members bestow upon me.

oh yea,i remember there was one teacher who taught me before said to "you will be a Datin one day"

so my question is..

MANA DATUK NYE !!??

jumbled up entries.

2009-09-07T17:46:00.009+08:00

starts off wit the entry i got too lazy to post,which was my Merdeka weekend,and continue wit last weekend outings ;

i reached KL on Friday night .due to last minute super major change of plans (Amy +Ben had super monster massive fight) my trusty fren Sanat fetched me frm Pudu.reach Damansara at around midnight.the whole Saturday me and Amy just lounge around the house where she cried major bucket fulls and i had to console her to be strong bout it, in the end we decided to finally adjourned for some clubbin.At first planned to bar hop all along Changkat BB,TwentyOne was super packed,Amy kinda dislike Cloth&Cleft (boo!! i like !well technically my eyes likes and my hormons enjoy it ! :p ) so we ended up in Envie ChangkatBB.kinda knew the owner's dad ! *haha* super cool Datuk who "jaga" the place but never drinks,and hot chicks are always around him.example:Amy.lol..hahahah..fyi its the night of some Man-U game where Farish ajak me to watch wit him (which i refused for dancing and drinking !)

the night where i had 1 long island,1 "lust" cocktail,2 tequila shots and 1 shot of B52

AND i only got tipsy for 5 minutes.

damn perfectly sober
that's Amy's finger btw.

day 2,Amy Ben so-called-breakup drama continues.so no night out wit my bff !! so we go upgraded to VIP @ Envie this time,we were fetched by Mr.X who brought his frens Mr.XX , Mr.XXX and later join by another Mr.XXXX who brought along 2 girls who me and Amy later find out that those 2 girls were just hoes..wtf ! (*names cannot be disclosed,so no pics of the unmentioned ppl*)

had jaggerbomb to keep me goin,and drank heck loads to get me drunk

it was Merdeka Eve !!! and one of the DJ is of my favourites,if u have been around my blog long enough,u would remember the playlist of the local artist,well the only male singer i updated was him.its Bo !

on da way to drunkness

Helenness Chong,before she left she asked if i was drunk or not,i dun remember wat i answered her.

ooohh bartenders are ♥

Bo !

ting tong.
vomited and passed out in Mr.XX's car,luckily he had plastic bag ready.

the next day,we had a mellow Merdeka day where we had manicure and hung around CURVE the entire day where we had lunch,teatime and dinner ( yea,we din puasa dat day.. :p )

busy facebooking while
indulging this

then at bout 6.30pm she decided to head for dinner ,despite my protest to blend in wit the "melayu" crowd,she refused,i relented and we ended up here

we left when other people just berbuka bout 10minutes.lol..

then the following night,Bff Ben text message me ,offered me a ride frm Damasara to Pudu as i was heading home.up to that day both of the lovebirds have not made up yet.Amy left for office so damn early in da morning,i slept thru till noon ,packed my stuffs and Bff actually came to fetch me on time.had random conversations on the way,sigh forgot to snap Bff pic to complete the "people i met " album..hhaah..

but no worries those two finally made up few days ago.and both got a damn long winded text message from me.i will not want to be in the middle again (although i am always at Amy's side la..hehe)

Amy insist that we get tis as "Friendship Band"

p/s :there's loads more pics in my FB.

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Saturday night,bout 11pm last minute my colleagues ajak clubbing,u know i dun like clubbin in Ipoh as i always only let loose in KL..after much persuasion i decided to head to HOUZ and meet up with the,had only KillKenny and dance a little.

Yien gone cuckoo,she had to snap wit my LV bag..lol

love me for who i am,thick or not also still must sayang k !

when at first i came in,they all say i look innocent,till i turned around ! Yien had to snap it !! haha..

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after hard pAArtying,the following day had plans wit Malay colleagues and some ex colleagues to berbuka puasa at Syuen Hotel.it was a mellow short but really fun affair.wish it was longer though,especially catching up wit ex colleagues.

it was quite a huge group,but din manage to snap much pics though.huhu..

2009-09-06T21:48:00.002+08:00

enough is enough.i have been dwelling into the shitty emotions hence lack in posting new entries here.i know a distraction is available,everywhere,but who am i trying to fool.the heart still hurts.no matter how i always joke about hooking up wit loads of new dudes wit my friends i know deep down im not ready as off yet.Farish just happens to be at the right place at the right time,but no sparks flew off just yet.a little,but dun seem enough.

i have always enjoyed the freedom of being single.yes.and no for now i am not looking for a new bf or so.i just want to know loads and loads of new batch of guys.something fresh and new.as i am trying to leave behind loads of bad apples and potential bad apples.

i hate myself for being so shy.everytime when a guy catches my eye,i would immediately dismiss him by smirking away,but its because i dunno how to react ! its really rare i would smile back or make the eye contact wit the person ! why am i like this !!! pffft.i just got home frm buka puasa wit current and some ex astro colleagues and i had 2 missed oppurtunities.how la to know new ppl !!!!!!!!!!! arrghhh !!!!!!!

2009-09-04T20:39:00.003+08:00

Hello September.i had a fucking blast Merdeka weekend,i am no mood to upload party pics please divert yourself to my facebook.i am still in no mood to blog properly just yet.i am still slumming in and out of depression.i am doing my best blocking out that fucker from invading my mind.but at times i cant help myself drifting my thoughts away to think of what he has done to me.

i think i found a potential replacement.but the problem is,his second name is exactly the same as the fucker's.Farish Daniel.is someone who is slowly taking my heart away.i feel comfortable to let him in,letting go of my emotions.and he is someone who is so keen and attentive.i am happy but i am still on guard at all times.so for now,im doing my best to get some peace out from my messy mixed up mind.surround myself wit close friends.being there for my beloved GF Amy when she was in need was the most fulfilling task i have done over the Merdeka weekend.i feel contented and happy that everything worked out fine now.

please pray to bloggin God to let me gain back my enthusiasm in updating.

2009-08-27T20:06:00.003+08:00

u know.its so true.
i am half malay
quater chinese and quater indian
and i embrace all the 3 races.
i am proud of who i am
and my family.
i am the 1.
i am Malaysia itself.
:)

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on an unrelated topic,
i am leaving for KL tomorrow till 1st September !
holla !!

2009-08-26T21:46:00.001+08:00

had lost a lot of diamonds while busy picking up stones

2009-08-24T16:48:00.004+08:00

u fucking bastard.im too fucking angry right now i dun fucking care puasa i batal !!! asshole..

talking bout fidelity?? oh yea..hmm..fuck you!!

2009-08-23T21:41:00.005+08:00

god ! i had so many outings but tooo damn lazy to update!! i need the my senses back.at times i wonder is it course of the nasty breakup? or just few minutes i realized that something is missing in my life right now.its my dad.he not been home.he have relocated himself in KL.i do not see him at all.for instance he came home on Thursday really late at night,he slept in the living room,and i din talk to him,when i went off to work,as he was still sleeping,we all thought he would be home,maybe for the weekend,he just left,and i just got a text frm in on just now apologizing for not being home to buka puasa.that brought me to tears.i thought i can move on without dad being around much.as my parents divorce when i was 16,but only now i felt the that something is missing when he had decided to move out.and for now,i am buying a house wit the help of mum and Daim,and we plan to move out from the current house asap.we found a nice brand new house that would fit us 4 nicely minus daddy.and its near my aunts cousins JJ...just basically near the area that i am usually at over the weekends.i am excited but sad altogether.

today marks the 2nd day of puasa,tis year i plan to do my best to keep it up.but some of my frens super doubt that i ever would !! wtf wei.. ( i can cuss now,as sudah berbuka..hehe)

but i cuba sedaya upaya..as tis coming merdeka weekend i'll be off to KL !! reuniting wit my GF+BFF and some other along the way!! i was gungho to puasa that time also,when GF posted on my fb wall

seriously?

the best was mum,when i told her i am goin KL for the weekend,she immediately warned "ur coughing is still so bad ah,u dont go down and drink !!!"

i brushed her off by the easiest escape route "no la where got drink,its puasa month"

last night after berbuka i meet up wit my cinapeks colleagues i failed,had a loong session of drinking in Old Town's snowy beers,and a super short one in Ipoh Garden's 777 !! and GF threw me the best quote ;

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i baked a yummy bday cake for cinapeks Rene & Joey.

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group photo.Astro staffs ! except 1 ex-staff!!
kindly please ignore me,bad hair day,hence bad hair

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since im on the roll ere,i just paste some pics

went dinner on Friday nite wit these 2 at Koh Sa Mui.

steamboat dinner 2 weeks ago !

GF+BFF came down 2 weeks ago for a day trip !!

last weekend dinner wit Eeja,and met up wit the best exboyfriend ever,Safri. :p

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ok that sums up for now.

2009-08-23T21:15:00.001+08:00

sedetik asmara syurga selamanya ,pergilah rinduku, hilangkan dirimu..

2009-08-20T21:28:00.004+08:00

i am back la.typing away in my own lappy.it feels good.hehehe..today i work till 2 pm!indahnya dunia..upn exiting the door,i told my vicious (at times lovely) boss "bye mummy" and she went "bye daughter" ...den she continued saying "no i should say ,bye wild girl" ..wtf ! so random right!
well not when my boss thinks im a willd parrty girl who gets drunk always when i hit the clubs.lol..she is just astounded that a melayu like me knows more bout clubbin scene den the rest of the cinapeks.hhehe..

company's annual dinner will be held in KL Convention Centre (tempat Siti kawen tuh!) and this year its gonna be bigger and better and our small section here are mostly coming as big bosses up there know and finally recognized we are the best section here,they want to show us off to the others!,dey are paying for our hotel accomodations!last year was Masquerade Parrty,dis year is Halloween theme!sigh..i dunno if i am gonna jadi hantu or not,course my closest colleagues planning on part 2 ( and dey all planned NOT to wear a costume) ,where i suggested Zouk.and now indirectly via word of mouth a lot is joining the after parrty including my ladyboss.and indirectly i am put in charge for that. wtf !! Amy i need you for this!!!

i am waiting on leave approvals for next week as i plan to visit my gf+bff and skandals.im excited berbuka puasa-ing wit them as well and celebrate Merdeka ! *fingers crossed*

i realize i have a few outings not updtd,and i dun like to back date.if u busybody go checkout ma FB la..but nothng much,just dinner wit the cinapeks,gf+bff came down for daytrip,went out dinner wit Eeja,and bumped into my ex Safri.

tis coming Saturday cinapeks gonna have a small suprise celebration for Rene.indirectly she was emailing me (we all chat via emails in office) saying she missed my lovely cake i made one year ago.so since her bday on 24th,so i decided to bake for her dis Saturday to suprise her!hehe.i cant wait.and yea Saturday also its the start of puasa.

k,run of of ideas ~~lazy~~ already.but at least ada lah update something!hehe

2009-08-18T22:28:00.005+08:00

hello fellow frens stalkers bloggers cousins enemies exboyfriends blogwalkers/hoppers/snoopers.in short hellow everybody!

No im still very much alive and kicking.no i have not been away to nurse my heartbreak.pfft..so over it this time!im looking ahead,conquering new path,gettin to know my new set of frens balancing wit the old ones.

Facebooking,updatin status like nobodies business.one thing i learned is dat people turn less bitchy and super nice once stepped out from high skool.im just glad they are part of my friend list.

Im off bloggin via mobile is kinda sucky.headin to fb now..t.

Bringin' on the Heartbreak

2009-08-09T21:28:00.005+08:00

i have broken up wit daniel iszqandar for real tis time.the last straw has been bent and tattered up to pieces.hurtful words were thrown to each other.we love each other.that i never doubt,but we can't be together course its too hurtful.no matter how much we try to mend it.we just can't be together.2 years+ knowing caring loving and pursuing each other all went down to flames.of all my ex's i have ever had,daniel iszqandar can not come in contact wit me again.we cannot.as we still care.so the best way to end tis and make it a clean break is to cut all ties.i admit that the last breakup in April, i wasn't ready to let go,dats why i led him back to my life in May and i tried,but i got annoyed and fed up as things never change.but now,though part of my heart is soo crushed,the other part of me ready to move on.last night onwards,i already did.

to Daniel,

i love you but we had to let each other go.we have to move on.thats it.its over,i dun need to explain myself to you anymore,i dun need to confess my wrong doings to you anymore.i am not answerable to you.i may be the worse gf u ever had,but i believe i did the fucking best i could to make you happy.if u were a better bf to me than maybe we would not end up like this.

i am free to fucking do whoever or whatever i want now.call me all the names in the world.i dun give a flying fuck.i know what i want and need,i shall pursue it,as long as i know how to handle the game well.

i will never stop loving your fragile heart.i am sorry for all.but tis is the best for both of us now.

jodoh di tangan Tuhan.so bye darling.

- your Toxic ExFarrah-

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p/s :in an unrelated topic,would like to iterate to all friends that currently my Digi number i have deactivated forawhile,i am only using my Maxis.

2009-08-08T00:10:00.003+08:00

short quickie post as typing frm baby E71
Anyway Daim told me the repair for da laptop is bout 850 bucks.wtf!!! I give up..he tried to convince me to repair,no fucking way im forking that much dough for dat piece of 2 year old crap which keeps givin me so much problem!!
I will fucking disown it and get another better laptop.ikutkan hati i fuckin want the slutty Macbook !!Tapi ikutkan bank balance...sigh..

2009-08-06T20:48:00.003+08:00

pardon me for my absence.its just my drive to blog at times fade away,yes my fucking laptop is in the shop,maybe a week or so to repair.to send it to repair also pun susah.i was telling Daim i want to get the new Sony Vaio and he was complaining saying that my current spoiled laptop processor is even faster than the Vaio,then i threw a bitch fit,complaining that no one wants to help me to solve my stupid laptop problem (well no one i mean him) den he cannot tahan,he immediately took me to his fren's shop. (**victory** the Queen still reigns supreme even when her elder brother have moved back home)

something bout my graphic blablabla spoiled,his fren is trying to help me to repair it frm Acer under warranty,if cant,i need to fucking forked up bout RM500 !! (I can see my cookie fly away already) and his fren's shop,i spotted.the beautiful angelic slutty 13inch Macbook.I was telling him all the way home i much i wanted to get THE Macbook and get my problem solved once and for all.as the 13inch one is at an affordable price and you can never go wrong wit Apple.for the pass half hour car ride home,Daim actually agreed that i should get the Macbook,then when reached home he changed 360 degrees ! so sad!! he said get my laptop fix and he will upload all the softwares for me (yea he's a tech geek),and everything should be okay.sigh.maybe next year's wish list Macbook.

anyway i am fucking broke now.i am NOT EVEN SHOPPING ! a vuitton neverfull (pm) and a tiny gucci boston joy already drained everything out except for the holiday money which is safely kept stashed away.

so my gf and my bff who is the COUPLE ,Amy and Ben is coming down for a day trip tis Sunday !! woohooo..i miss her sooo much.oh yea Ben too..haha.but day trip = no late night drinking session,if not i would definately take dem to taste the super yummy snowy beers i had last week.
supposedly my lil pet sister Fatin will be down tis Saturday also,and she is dying to meet up,but she just left me a message in FB stating that she is soo sick now.poor doll.sigh.but anyhow's its GI Joe tomorrow,and steamboat wit my cinapeks on Saturday.they plan to eat frm 7pm till midnight as in till the shop's closing time.well,if looking back at my steamboating (is dat even a word) history where i fail miserably all the time,we'll see how i fare tis time. so yes ! i will be having a packed weekend ahead.

i have a feeling a damn emo post will come up soon.

2009-08-02T17:38:00.002+08:00

my laptop died.chibai ! i dun get it,friday evening i was using it,den i went out came home and since then i cant on it till now ! the power lights up,but den it does not start up ! bodo nye.i asked Daim to take a look,he said either my harddisk or something else ada problem ( i forgot) after he selongkar bukak the laptop.depressed giler.ikutkan hati,nak jugak campak the laptop and get a macbook or maybe the new sony vaio.fuck acer,the laptop is less than 2 years old and i had spend sooo much,around RM5K on it,and macam siot la.anyway im using Daim's super awesome and fast laptop,Windows 7 ! thank god ! the vista had a replacement.

omg.im gonna stop ranting,anyway i must upsell tis.i watched 'Setem' on Friday night wit my brothers and Michelle.and i was super excited as its a Khabir Bhatia's movie as his previous movie 'Sepi' is so damn good,and 'Setem' is so awesome and damn funny.light humour,direct funny punch lines.and i love the social diversity.its fuckin great.a must watch.

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yesterday the Twins invited us over to their house again for dinner.its their last night in Malaysia,2 months just went by so fast! they went back to the States already.
great food,good wine,great funny family.
and they got me a super gorgeous NineWest watch and a cute kit of toiletries.

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older outings that was not updated

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last night after dinner at the twins,immediately dashed off to meet up wit the cinapeks colleagues of mine,whom i had grew much closer over this last few months :)

self obligatory pic :)

i was taken to tis super cinapek hang out place in old town which serves ice chilled beers ! super yummy,they call it snowy beers.
the night was all bout bitching,joking,laughing our asses off.
like our company's tag line,
astro.macam-macam ada. :)

FB.hidupku.

2009-07-30T21:14:00.012+08:00

im so behind on my posting.i had few outings wit girlies not updated yet.and EeLee happily flew off to Singapore just now,and i had passed her my 8GB pendrive which contain a heck load of our outing pics and few vids ! shit.guess maybe i will just snatch some from FB.(too lazy to do it now)

i dun get wats wrong wit me lately,i malas giler giler nak update!but i damn berazam to maintain tis blog as long as possible.so i forced myself to start a new posts.lol.

my FB status lately maybe u understand why i tak de mood giler!

(not goin to Juice anniversary was just an alasan,but fuck saya mau berdansa!)

My darling Amy immediately called me trying to interrogate me pasal status GEMPAK i posted,but as usual,my phone i tak answer (well who is close to me will knoe that im the last person u will call if ur in an emergency.dulu Daniel selalu marah me for tis,he will say "if i dah nk mati how??" ) lol..sorry diverted cherita plak.so we ended up texting each other instead

few minutes later,my new bff who is Amy's bf Ben! plak bercomment in FB,dis damn funny wait i shall post it

the joke was i just learned what sam su really few days ago,after he read that,Ben tak leh blah,terus facebook chat saying that he'd rather have tapai den sam su..lol..den our conversation turn to me passing messages between Amy and Ben. ( i was texting her dat time) ,
these 2 love birds is so funny.den later me and Ben started talking about our darling Amy
he told me something insightful.haha..the first thing he learned and quickly adapted in their relationship..
huhu..no i tak nak post it ere Amy.. :p
itu hanya between me and my bff..
(**i can imagine Amy taking her phone immediately texting me after reading tis,which i will not tell and she will start to unleash her slew of bad words forcing me to tell...hahha..i know u too well syg :p )

anyway.those 2 are so crazy funny cool.
♥♥♥

ooooh yea,since im in print screen +copy pasting mode,there is one more funny conversation we exchanged in FB.

Daniel just recently told me im an alcoholic (*pouts im not! i dun drink enough)
and i need to clarify that i get tipsy.really tipsy.but i dun get drunk !! i dont!
and yea why 'Brickfields' ? haha...looong story

and tis is how me and amy divert topic like hell...
click to enlarge
no worries i wont call u a busybody :p

all in all.u cant help but love FB soooo much as it connects you to people that u love :))
♥♥♥

p/s: dis saturday,gonna have massive drinking session wit my cinapeks colleagues (no we not goin to bars or clubbin !!) lol..i told dem i wanna see how cinapeks yum cha.i'll be the odd one there as it seems the place they taking me is truly cinapeks lepak only..but its k,its the company tat matters. :p
gotta embrace the cinapekness in my blood also.
lol

2009-07-26T00:26:00.003+08:00

oh.im such a bad blogger these days.lazybug.dats ur answer.i have got so much to talk bout.but mcm sudah lazy as sound like old news already now.
but i just need to say that HP was kinda sedih,waited like 2 years for this and tak puas hati la! omg,me and Eyah said we should direct our own HP,dun care if it runs for 6 hours,we will give intervals and all,at least puas sikit,some parts were changed,and the whole entire movie are equivalant to snippets from the book.now i am afraid Deathly Hollows will disappoint me!please dont!!

just got home from watching Land of the Lost.well its okay.funny but,humours were kinda dry and predictable.

and me and Daniel.gosh.dun even wanna go there.eek.all i wanna ask him now "when are we ever gonna be okay?" and "have a healthy relationship again?" he stole my heart away,never returned it.but he at times never tend to it.sgt geram ok!its frustrating.

oh yea if u had read "flaming you" post (below below pls) well i just found out our dear friend,had deleted her facebook acc and all Amy had to say was "yea she should hide her face man!" and Amy said that my entry was "damn dashyat" ,but yea i really let go!all i have kept inside and tolerated and blindsided by her.that posts may ruin or would have already ruin our friendship wit her,but yes she needs that big impact to get her straighten her shit out.i dun care if she do not want us as her fren anymore (shit like so highskool!) all i know as a fren who loves her and care for her so much,i had to be cruel to be kind.she may not see the goodness in me behind my evil deeds.but i believe i made a difference,and dats all that matters.plus i am loving and enjoying my consistency in sustaining me and Amy's friendship,thick and thin we been through for 15 years.i love her the most,she matters the most to me.

since early July till now ! im still having horrible horrible cough.earlier tis month the horrible coughing was bloody and led to fever.mum complained and say that its because of my DRINKING.waay to much.no i dun have a drinking problem! its the fucking weather.anyway im now super craving for a chilled jug of Long Island please.pweety please.oh yea less the lemon bit. :p

omg.this just in.Malaysia's most creative talent has just passed away.the great Yasmin Ahmad,im literally really really sad.Inalillah,Al-Fatihah.

:(

2009-07-23T20:54:00.000+08:00

sick again
suffering frm writer's block
terima kasih.

2009-07-20T20:02:00.006+08:00

i just uploaded 13 of the best and most gorgeous tracks performed by our lovely local acts which comprises the super talented Yuna, Zee Avi, Estrella & Bo
please take your time to listen to all of the songs :)
it will be a pleasure to your ears.

flaming you

2009-07-19T17:04:00.006+08:00

i am still feeling so exhausted.slept at 4am.woke up at 9pm,and slept again at 2pm and woke up at 4.30pm.that is alot of sleep!yet i still feel groggy.the weather = horrible.i on my air cond on 16 degrees and my fan was blasting away as well.

my last post.as in not exactly a post but more like an expression ,is last tuesday!wtf!!this can only mean my mood this few days downhill.Friday evening up to night i was frm text messaging to chatting online wit my gf Amy.we spent damn fucking loong hours together.we were halfway joined by our other close fren Eyah who is all the way in UK.we did not purposely chose the topic we bitched about but it just pops up!i know u might read this entry ,so yea just fyi me and amy we talking bout our own stuffs when i saw my phones had ur miss call at 5am !! dat was how it all started when i ask you 'why?'

on saturday afternoon / late evening,we were still conferencing talking bout it,den the person we talk bout came online.where all 3 of us try to reason wit her,but things got really downhill and tensions were running high when she still dont see wat is wrong wit the situation,instead she gives pathetic excuses and she being melodramatic wit all of us.Amy was the funniest one,she mocks her like hell,and hit it all on the right places.and the worse was loveable goody2 sgt alim Eyah got the worst hit from her.it was so shocking that she would say those things to Eyah.i feel bad for Eyah.Eyah claimed that she cried.she was she soo hurt.after bashing for long,i and to run along to get ready for my date.Amy got a wedding to attend and Eyah have a date as well wit her bf.so we just all left the conversation.

later at night.like as in wee hours of this morning actually,i was talking away wit Eyah online,as in we din start the bitching.we just sharing movie reviews and shit,den that dear old fren came online.she keep buzzin and asking i was there.at that moment,i felt so sick of it,i din bother.then she starts crappin away trying to explain herself and possibly adding some hints of lies to make it more juicy and she try to turn the tables around playing the victim.that got me pissed,so i resort to reply her,givin her good rebuttals back.all the while i was copy-pasting it all to Eyah,where Eyah and I will concoct a reply to her.im not being a mean bitch.but she needs a wake up call.and we tried but she still wont back down from her high horse,i had to be cruel to be kind.we all care,but she just dun care and being all defensive.dah salah tapi tak nak mengaku langsung.and once again it is not because of the "sordid affair" its all because of all the decisions u made that lead you to who u have become today.i even told her she has turned into a monster.u doing TESL.at least pun u will be a lecturer one day? i spit on you.seriously i will.i have no respect for you anymore if u still continue to be who you are now.you choose your path.there is always right and wrong.you know somethings need to be threaded carefully,i know you are not that dumb.unless u agree you are a dumb bombotic blonde.but from the way you throw out your flowery English at us,i dun think u are.anyway just because Eyah was in the conversation wit us,there is not reason for you to show off!! tapi when talk to ur frens in that uni of yours,mulut cam minah rempit.remember how shocked i was when you were carrying the conversation in the car??? and u PROUDLY proclaimed that it took you 2 years to master it?? wat is there to be proud off.those language are utter nuisance.if ur frens cant accept u the way u are,why must you lower down to their standard??

over the years,it has always been me and amy.super tight knit.you can never ever ever be like us.we accept you for who u are (before u mutated to the monster now) but you string along,and try to be someone you are not over the years.and now we are all 22 and growing older.we have all grow up.."been there done that" phase but you are still stuck.and if you still regard of what your doing now is cool??? think again.me and amy whatever we do,the shopping the partying all is by our own hard earn money.we work our asses off to support our lifestyle.so yes we are allowed to brag about it.but you? you use people in the manipulative ways possible.
money is never in issue wit both of us but wit you.sigh dun let me go there.please.

i was always scolded as why do i always take ur side.why do i defend you.but now.sorry i have opened my eyes.i just loathe fake wannabe posers.stop being someone you are not.sometimes i think back listening to our conversations,its irks me.it irks me listening to your melodramaticness.

i loved you to death.but right now i don't wanna care much.why bother? u have all your friends in that uni.who cares for u in the most interesting way possible.go ahead,if u still dun slow down and evaluate ur situation,then u indirectly have bought a one way ticket to ur own path of distraction.wat would u single mum,ur sis or even ur big brother say to you once they actually find out who you really really are?

ur fucking lucky i did an entire blog post about u.and i tried by best to tone down the nasty.you should feel like crap and be totally broken inside.course no matter how hard you try to be like us.u can never.course we are who we are.we are born wit it,others accept us for it.from high skool we were mocked wit our ways,Amy took the worst hit of all.but now,us beside you? we are practically saints or maybe at least way better than you and you know me and Amy are no angels.hahha.we know how to handle the game well,dat is why me and Amy compliment each other so well,but u tried dippin your toes in and den DIVE headfirst.seriously you are such a laughing stock,no wonder Amy said ur drama is even greater than 'Tudors' the series.even Eyah prefers people like us than fake people like you.that is alot coming from a fren like Eyah,course we are such opposites but we compromise and respect each other.but you? you act like an angel infront of Eyah.so now you rasa malu yg Eyah dah tau your true colours?yes u should feel shameful !

*tis post have not been proof read.dun mind my grammar*

2009-07-14T12:25:00.000+08:00

very relatable post secrets

(credits to postsecret.com)

2009-07-12T14:50:00.006+08:00

1. i succumbed to temptation.i ate my words.i signed up an account for twitter.wtf.i know right.but honestly i have not seen the fascination yet.i used it to update my FB status.course i update my status daily.maybe its also because i did not follow much people yet.i know there are shit loads of u all out there have an account in twit wait la,im not in the mood to follow u all yet.but we'll see,its just not time yet for me.
anyway if u insist u can follow

2. Su Yen made me sad today.she directed to me F21 website to check out the new arrivals for the headbands.i have been oggling over it ever since.gritting my teeth in envy.
blame Blair Waldorf.

3.Irwan is screaming at Daim's laptop right now as he is loosing the game he's playing.
speaking of Daim,he is back home now.for good.i dunno wanna feel happy or sad.
he has been away from home since i was 16.and to see him again daily is just.WEIRD.

4.been feeling very sangap this pass week since i came home from KL.
dun ask.

5.i told Daniel before he heard it or read it from somewhere else.i told him i kissed someone but to my defense i was fucking drunk.
he said i curang.but in a not angry-im-gonna-breakup-wit-u-manner.he forgives me
i think.
but honestly it was just a harmless friendly kiss

6.just shouted at Irwan " you suck ok! stop it! " as he is annoying me to bits wit the stupid game he is playing.

7.something funny just happened.my mum is in KL,she is in OU now and is trying to call Aunty Christina to fetch her but unable to contact her,she tried Aunty Jennifer but she is not answering,so she called my lil bro (much to his annoyance) to ask me to try to call them as her hp battery dying.i successfully managed to call A.Jenn who was laughing her ass off as to why am i the one doing the calling when im in Ipoh. -__-

8.my fucking annoying lil brother is cheering and doing victory dance and making stupid sounds
and talking in Indian saying "Sawadi"! as he finally won the stupid game.

9.i hereby proclaim that i am buying the KP500 biscuit ~~cookie~~ LG phone to replace my secondary phone which im currently using that is the flossy pink w580i.the w580i is less than a year old and still looks fucking brand new.but i get to sell it with a good price,so the cookie phone is the best replacement as i can have a touch screen one as well.plus its not pricey ,functions are okay except the wifi and 3g tak ade,but my babyE71 have them.so its all fine.
i will have best of both worlds.a smart phone and a touch screen one.
its perfect.yea as avid readers will know,i am phone obsessed.
but i will be buying it end of this month,after doin massive calculations.
fyi :Michelle dun worry im still saving for Bandung.

10.that concludes my entry for today.my Sunday have been pointless and mundane so far.
and tomorrow is Monday already??!! wtf.time ,please so down

just had to upload something. :p

2009-07-12T13:11:00.001+08:00

disclaimer :a forwarded chain of email frm office that i'd like to share.

MEN ARE JUST HAPPIER PEOPLE

NICKNAMES

* If Laura, Kate and Sarah go out for lunch, they will call each other Laura, Kate and Sarah.
* If Mike, Dave and John go out, they will affectionately refer to each other as Fat Boy, Godzilla and Four-eyes.

EATING OUT

* When the bill arrives, Mike, Dave and John will each throw in $20, even though it's only for $32.50. None of them will have anything smaller and none will actually admit they want change back.
* When the girls get their bill, out come the pocket calculators.

MONEY

* A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.
* A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need but it's on sale.

BATHROOMS

* A man has six items in his bathroom: toothbrush and toothpaste, shaving cream, razor, a bar of soap, and a towel .
* The average number of items in the typical woman's bathroom is 337. A man would not be able to identify more than 20 of these items.

ARGUMENTS

* A woman has the last word in any argument.
* Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

FUTURE

* A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
* A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.

SUCCESS

* A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
* A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

MARRIAGE

* A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
* A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, but she does.

DRESSING UP

* A woman will dress up to go shopping, water the plants, empty the trash, answer the phone, read a book, and get the mail.
* A man will dress up for weddings and funerals.

NATURAL

* Men wake up as good-looking as they went to bed.
* Women somehow deteriorate during the night.

OFFSPRING

* A woman knows all about her children. She knows about dentist appointments and romances, best friends, favorite foods, secret fears and hopes and dreams.
* A man is vaguely aware of some short people living in the house.

THOUGHT FOR THE DAY
A married man should forget his mistakes. There's no use in two people remembering the same thing!

2009-07-12T01:07:00.001+08:00

confirmed 1 case of H1N1 in Astro Bukit Jalil (ABC).thank god im in Ipoh.

2009-07-06T17:34:00.004+08:00

pictorial post.too lazy
started off,by taking Amy's mum along wit me,and bout 2 hours later we arrived,waiting for Ben+Amy to fetch us to Amy's place at Pelangi Damansara (memories memories,4 years ago!still fresh in my mind)

my lovely gorgeous gf.15 years and still goin strong!

few hours later bummin around at home,we got ready for Zouk's Comedy Night

on da way ,camwhoring.

wit Q
velvet underground's toilet.lol

after much running around frm ther half hour shift (Amy had to jaga the door for her company's event)
we finally got to be together.as in all 3 at the same time same place.

.perfect shot.

during the last act,whoever the comedian was ,sangat horrible ,pathetic.a lot walked out on him,including us.
we went out to chill,while waiting for Ben as Q is so keen on draggin me to Bar Celona

wit Amy's mum.who got drunk later in Zouk.

after Ben arrived,Q and I adjourned to Sunway.honestly its my first time entering Bar Celona.
omffgggxxx!!!
damn shocking shiiittt.
the crowd was.omg.siot je.
luckily i had my frens wit me.
songs were repetitive (apa nye DJ)
i got hit on by loads if guys but it i was scared shit as dodgy malay guys are not my thing.
there were some of those that are my type but i was just plain scared.
i din bother at all.
though i must admit,i dance like hell.but thank god for good company.no pics in Bar Celona as was even afraid to bring ma camera.

updated in Bar Celona

laters we went to Asia Cafe for dinner/supper

my hair mch sudah dicuci.its dat hot!

sorry Q,i will not ever go the the dodgy club again.anyway was sent home bout 4.30am
and i dilly dallied in the room while everyone else was sleeping at home.
i managed to sleep at 5.15am and woke up at 8 in the pagi !! wtf.i know right!

next evening,me and Amy decided to start our bonding time.we headed to OU.for random shopping / window shopping.
went to Vincci and there's this Indo Birkin Clad lady bought 124 pairs of shoes.
her list was soo panjang weh.nampak sgt berbusiness in Indo.
and i saw this Indo dude wit his mum whom i was secretly just eyeing as Amy was just being annoying looking through wedges (i will always tell she looks ugly in them course dat bitch is modelesque tall already k!)
anyway da dude is okay looking.my taste.cheh..haha..but i dun get it as why are guys using white E71 ???mcm siot je.
Amy asked me to ask him to tukar phone wit me as i was mumbling bout my grey steel one.lol..

anyway we did some light shopping at F21 and Diva,and had pedicure.lovely bonding time.

later,we decided to head to Loft-The Upstairs
tapi sampai2 sama,plans changed as Diddy decided that we check out Blanc instead.
but sadly the crowd in Blanc was abit off,no feel at all.we all got bored
the fucking Long Island Tea was more expensive than Zouk.
we were der for less than an hour and decided to leave where i parted ways wit Diddy.
we decided to go for supper,having BKT and beers at Dataran Sunway.

on da way to Heritage Row.

aww.love em

Ben tried his best to snap wit the KL Tower behind.

Diddy !

overall it was a good night but not great.after supper i realize i was up since 8am and had only so little to sleep ;

i made a new bff after i finished the shots

Saturday,we practically spent the whole day bumming around the apartment,we were all too lazy to function.
me and amy will ask each other to bath so dat we can go out shopping again,but neither of us did dat.instead we ended up sleeping the daytime away.Ben's parents had made dinner reservations for us at 7.30pm and Ben only called at 6.45pm to informed that he was on the day.wtf ! we were all rushing.Ben parents are really great,its my second time meeting them.
we were treated wit super scrumptious super duper expensive seafood dinner.

after math.Ben's mum asked why after makan only wanna snap
*shy mah!*
fyi :Ben's mummy is Chinese and dad's Malay.

before leaving the restaurant

Chong and Ben *future lawyers in the making*

then laters all 4 adjourned to Times Square to watch Transformers,its me and Chong's second time while the couple's first.so we did our best (but failed) to not tell Ben.

the movie ended at 1.30am,malls closed.lifts were conjested and slow.
we were in the 10th floor and the car was in the 2nd.
what did we do?

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these...

will u ever consult these lawyers?lol

was taken a tour around the red light district in brickfields while on the way to Reggae Bar

its a damn fucking cool laid back (super packed) bar.
the drinks are bloody cheap as well.
i had mojito.yumyum..but it took awhile for the sambuca to kick in,that is,right after i finish downing a Chong's unfinished beer.

my new BFF.drinking kaki.
its fucking memorable.nearly closing Reggae Bar played MJ'S You Are Not Alone
Ben was saying "ini mcm nk halau org balik je"
i was downing my mojito real fast that time (abandoned the straw!)
and guess what !
i fucking spit the mojito on him !!as in it burst out of my mouth to his face and baju..
so its dubbed that tis song x dapat dilupakan already.
but always like that,make joke when people are drinking! wtf.

pointless vid,but Chong embarrassed himself till he untag tis vid in FB.lol

then Ben bought some cheap beers from a shop hidden in Brickfields.
i downed the can before we even reach Hartamas for supper.
i was half drunk,fully tipsy dat time.
no piccies as batt died.
i remember smoking up the sheesha while Ben and Amy continued their mild addiction to win the UNO in ma phone (they suck like hell)

but Ben updated my FB STATUS !!

Amy said i was jumping around and running a lil while walking towards the 7E.
(but i dun remember)
i remember Amy asking me to walk straight which i failed miserably.
i remember guys were picking us up from far where i waved back to god knows who
then we walked by again they started callin 'Sayang' where i answered damn loud "im not your sayang!" twice.
i remember but blurry.
i remember Chong said i was cute in chinese.
and lastly while i mocked Chong's facebook name, while gettin off the car,he opened the door to say i insulted him,
i walked over to him in the car, said "come here" while pulling up his face.kissed him and walked away.

i went up to the apartment and fall flat on the couch.
best night ever!

next day,last day shit din wanna go home actually.
went off to Snips @ Curve where tis cute stylist did my hair and said that wit the hair he blowed for me i looked sexxy. :))

we headed off to OU for

ariz ramli @ caprice.
he remembers me.i was like awestruck when he mentioned my name and our last conversation weh!
haha..but yea i like his swag and his music.

finals pics before i head home wit my brother

not stranded,but waiting for BEN.

that concludes it all.

2009-07-05T20:38:00.003+08:00

back from hiatus.
soon will update

.reunited.

2009-07-01T20:48:00.003+08:00

taken by babyE71 hence the blurness

cannot tahan.want to watch all over again.i will only do tis for GG.

it was fucking orgasmic

2009-06-28T20:56:00.013+08:00

that is,the Transformers movie that i managed to finally watch today.the night before din get a good sleep,woke up at odd hours,and at one point i woke up at 6.30am,crept downstairs and start to read my novel.45 mins later i adjourned back upstairs and continue reading at my own couch in my room.then i went back to bed,and woke up at 8.30am (stupid alarm) dragged myself downstairs to bath.as Mich asked me to pick her up from church.i waited bout 20mins in the car and the minute she comes to the car,i switch over to the passenger's seat and let her drive my car.lol..im always like dat,i get lazy when im around Mich,and she is the most trusted driver to me,dats why i open heartedly and willingly give her my keys.always.lol..

anyway we went straight to JJ,loitered in Watsons as i needed to stock up my toiletries and makeup,and met up wit Su,and the Twins.omfg,there were a heck load of ppl lining up and the snack stand,the girls were halfway lining up (mind you behind them there were 5+ ppl more) and guess what!! we only managed to get the last popcorn.its all freaking SOLD OUT.whoa madness.

though tickets were purchased earlier ,if im not mistaken 2 days earlier,we managed to get seats 4th row frm the front.but its all good.i like how there are light humours inserted in the movie.trust me,i was never a fan when it all started,i din even watch the first one in the cinemas,i watch it in HBO few months back ,it was soo good,i was ecstatic! i became a fan overnight!!i am planning to watch it again,but this time in IMAX !!after the movies were quite horrific.and if im not mistaken dis time 3 cinemas were opened for the movie and its like human traffic upon exiting the cinemas and going down the escalator .well u know how we Malaysians are.i dun tink i need to describe the scenario.

after the movies,the Su and Twins wanted to do some shopping,Su went to Esprit while the Twins headed to MNG.i followed to Esprit first,but honestly im no fan,i left Su and Mich to join the Twins in MNG.i stayed away.as far as possible from the clothes rack.and headed to the accesories.i spotted 2 clutch bags (screams!40% off for all bags) and 2 hangbags and a wallet.i wanted it all.i loitered quite a while ,i did the bravest thing.i WALKED AWAY.i had to.plus im scared of Mich already when it comes to shopping.(serious!) i have shopped waaaaaaaaayyyyy too much.(its gonna take a hell lot of courage for me to avoid shopping in KL)

for lunch we headed off to Kampai.we even got the private room as Twins family are regulars and Twins dad are Kampai's owners doctor.so its kinda cool,we had our privacy.its all good.we even got free dessert and sake.omg guys,as followers of my blog u all know how much i love to drink,and how i am into alchoholic beverages.its my first time drinking sake.it was hot.like sgt panas,not usual chilled alco beverages i have.but its soo good.i love the burning sensation in my throat.hmmm..i took over Su + Mich's sake and down it all in a shot.lol..food's good.but i only eat cooked sushi,and i do NOT take fish.we all ate till we bloated,portions are huge,and in a set there's all kinds of stuffs.

waiting for Mich

camwhore before ordering the food.lol

i for one,refused to remove my sandals.lol..

stuffed.we look tired after eatin.lol

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the food
(well me and twins chose the same set,mich and Su had the same set)

see the purpose of the bill is not to show how much we ate,but look up to the left side,
its stated Dr.Suba's Daugh,hence the less 10% disc and freebies.
:)))

2009-06-25T20:57:00.005+08:00

i tink my banner,i have edit it a lil tooo sharp ,but heck im too lazy already.believe it or not,im
currently dancing to Paul Anka's 'put your head on my shoulder' so random! gosh i know man.but maybe im feeling a lil emo- i guess.

my bf = M.I.A ,how freaking annoying is that.sometimes i pun ...hmm tak tau la,he reads my blog nanti dier terasa.im too nice.but being NICE is wat kills me inside.

i seriously seriously seriously need to stop shopping.i cant tell much here anymore,as Mich will start lecturing me again,her words she told me if im not mistaken was last week i tink, "if u stop buying those many pairs of shoes and clothes and handbag u will have a lot of money"
wow,mcm terasa.ok i will start saving for Bandung effective end of July.i promise!!

Amy asked me a favour,to bring along her mum to kl wit me.of course i dun mind i known her mum since forever as well,plus i will have a companian riding wit me next week then.haha.and she said she will pay me back,of course i can not accept money from her.lol

love it how friends just understand my needs.
i love alchohol.a lot.but im not an alchoholic.course i know my limits
~~unless too hyphy~~

but i enjoy the feeling of being tipsy.

i have a bloody annoying painful thing stuck in my left nostril.its so pain everytime i touch it,and i see dried blood always.so eew and painful !!

i have been playing tis facebook typing game where friends keep beating my score,its annoying course i need to main lagi so dat my score goes higher.at times i play till i dun reply instant msgs and when mum calls me, i told her "i cant move right now" haha..so chee sin,but STILL only manage to beat a lil bit.YOU ALL VERY FREE IS IT !!no need to work or study???? pffftttt!

another day another random not so interesting posts.sorry ive been a bore these days.

2009-06-23T19:54:00.003+08:00

(taken from babyE71-sucks,i know rite?)

birthday mode still kinda on.
team members bought me carrot walnut cheesecake today.
(ignore messed up english)

guess what?!!
i cut the cake before blowing the candles.
damn embarrassed k..
so obvious i never cut cake for a reeeeaaaaallllllyyyyyy long time.

next news,my leave have been approved.
so kl here i come!!!
reuniting wit my darlings Amy & Q.
Diddy (unofficial driver) and to anyone else who is available to meet up.
holla holla.
2nd July till the 5th July.
nope , x mau pegi Akon.
Amy's company (she is working for TimeOut KL) is hosting an event in Zouk on the 2nd (some comedy night thing)
where i will be there (course she really want me too)
same night,Q and Pravin will drag me to Bar Celona frm Zouk.
(see so much love,all have plans for me already and dat is only the first night!)
somebody is buying me a flaming lambo for my belated bday as its a customary bday drink!
(woot woot !~)
can u see how happy i am.
i miss all of em.
now.i have to endure day to day till next thursday!
dats bout a week and 2 days away!!!!

2009-06-21T11:56:00.007+08:00

my elder brother Daim came home on Thurday to check out the penthouse that he was planning to buy wit mum,but sadly he hated it.he said its small. :((

crushed dreams of mine.sedih sedih..

then me and mich meet up wit him for dinner.at this horrible eatery called MyPoint in Ipoh Garden.its my second time there at that time.i accidentally poured salt over my soup instead of pepper.hence,not touching it at all.had the scotch lamb as highly recommended by Ben.but hated it so much,passing my food to Daim to polish it off.

laters Ben was super gungho to go karaokeing (on a weekday mind you!!)

as it was Tarzan nite ad E-box.ya la all the men pay soo cheap,me and mich had to pay bout 18 bucks each (but i dun tink we paid Daim..heheh).sadly Ebox standard is no where near Kbox.i dun tink will be goin Ebox ever ever again.

daim came home wit his leather shoes,and he went out in Ipoh town wit these bathroom slippers !

emo.

blame the hair.bad hair day.

daim left Saturday morning. :(( hanging out wit my elder brother is fun.as we get old over the years.huhu..plus he was my saviour.he brought home for me the final few episodes of season 2's GG for me to watch.and i watched twice !! the last 3 episodes !!! which resulted to these

yea me and my multiple orgasms.but seriously i cant help but smile every time its his scene .gosh i want to watch all over again from season 1.

2009-06-15T19:34:00.008+08:00

birthday mode still kinda on :)

not only was greeted by hundreds of emails,backlog (ctrl +del mostly)but i got this email also..lol..actually its kinda a default email.but still made me smile.

*click to view*

i have been eyeing this lovely babies from the the window outside a boutique near my office.i walk by it everyday.pointing it to my colleagus everyday.and well,its mine now.a gift frm them.its kinda leather-ish ,but tis is not like any other gladiators as these are studded buttoned ones.

ignore whatever u see.focus on the shoes.