i think i am plunging into an emo post now.i just feel so down and quite undecided on certain situations ,and going thru some ' too good to be true' phase as well.i am a pessimistic person ,though i try hard to be optimistic.its so confusing.Amy is doing furniture and appliances window shopping and invoice listing for my stamp of approval .and all i do is transfer dough to her.she is such a sweetheart i tell you ,like she said hard labour konon..haha..but yea i need to get organised sooon ! its december already and by late January i need to wipe out my current room and lug them all to kl,and on top of dat i find myself contemplating on which Astro office i wish to report to ;Bukit Jalil or Capsquare.i was at first dead on reporting to KL office then the last team building really made me realize that i have faarrrr more friends in Bukit Jalil compare to the latter.but then i have given Amy my word and we have plan so much to settle down together.so i do not want to let her down as it took us such a long journey to get back to where we are now and i dont wanna ruin it.plus KL office is alright i do have a few friends there too,plus both offices always collaborate in having events so its not like i dun see dem at all,heck we are emailing everyday even when im here in Ipoh and facebook ! hehehe..phew now i realize its not as that bad as it seems. :)

my wonderful brother decided to follow dad back to KL and left his car,and will only arrive home at 3am!as in i gotta fetch him frm the station.iddioottss betul,da la i weekday serious macam zombie and too lazy to function except in the office je.

anyway these are some of the staffs and close colleagues frm Ipoh office who went to the team building

my ruthless but fun boss next to me,on my right.

backlogged to the core.3 weekends ago followed my colleagues to Gentings for a day trip.have not been der for aggeeessss.and i hereby proclaimed i hate to play any game in the theme parks.

i will just be a photog .thank you.

i took a gazillion pictures but feel so pai seh to upload like tourist liddat wtf !

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the following weekend later,head off to KL for the team building,whereby we were put up in Cititel Midvalley instead of the earlier planned,but not complaining,much prefer Cititel then PJ Hilton.easy access to guy oggling and shopping.well not that i bought any.before checked in we headed to OU first for lunch and ber forever 21 and ber dorothy perkins.i fooorrggggggooooot to check out Cotton On der..dayymmmn it! was whisked away at OU by bff Amy and Ben.those 2 eat like hooorrssee and those 2 dun get fat ! fucking jealous.Ben dropped me off at the hotel,and Amy darling tagged along together.we basically just chilled at the room watching Discovery Channel (so intellectual liddat!),together went down for dinner wit my other colleagues ,as usual half way thru had some argument wit Ben,so killed her mood to do anything.poorrr meeee cannot cuci mata,have to teman bff back to the roommm..bumped into Pui Yun and also another fren Zaki  at Gardens who was a lil bluuurred at first i din bother to greet him,till he sent me a wall post in FB to inform that it took him awhile to register my name.he said suddenly blank.wtf !

Ben was gonna be late as he had some family thing which Amy did not joined,so my roomie was Joe dear,so all 3 of us in the end watched the premiere of Twilight @ Star Movies.hahah..the whoole show.

and yea yea New Moon was shitznit.team Taylor (i think.so many ask me i said i dun choose as i like the idea of the saga!)

5am wake up call to get ready ,head to Astro Bukit Jalil and assembled there.in total there were about 140+ staffs in the last batch to attend the Team Building or aptly named MADnESS camp

(M.A.D =making a difference)

i admit that i at first were a lil scared to attend plus the Ipoh side are about only 11 people out of the whole lot.but boy was i wrong i met up old friends,made absolutely fabulously gay boys and girls who sama kepala as me.i miss all soo much now.i actuallly kinda abandoned my Ipoh mates and they keep on telling me to stop saying im shy as prior the the camp i keep on telling them i sure will not be happy course im very shy to mix around but they see how i mingle about made say 'now i know whats ur definition of shy' hahaha....my boss who is also an AVP and my Team Manager whom i always mentioned her being ruthless but fun at the same time,said 'i ckp tak serupa bikin'

i mean yea.i need to rephrase my shyness statement

'i am shy around straight men' wtf !~ but not all ! hahah i dunno la.i know im deep down quite shy even Amy seconds that.but it depends i guess.

anyway Team Building was so fun and unforgettable.

batch 5 was the best everrr..

the best part was the 'Pow Pow' session,its a thai dance.where 1 guy frm each team have perform and improvise own steps and do the 'Pow Pow'! link ere just so u get the idea.though he was the winner but others were more provocative.kekekeke..

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dinner at Vietnam House @OU

fascinated that Cititel windows double up as mirrors at night.

note :good for sex

Corus Paradise Resort,view from hotel room.toilet was shitty

session 5 ! pls dun spot me.

my team Vannavil was in top 5 placing out of 12 teams who compete !

the cute boy behind me,Rizal is soooo adorably gay.while we were at the open dance floor he said

 'first time dance dengan slipper'

kalau i pakai heels bukan 3 inci !! 5 inci ok! ' hahah soo cuutte

and his funniest quote : 'sgt susah nak cari boyfren supermodel untuk i'

Nana,sama kepala ! i miss her so much ,she gave me a title "Mak Hayyaaammm'

i ni nampak cam mak ayam ke?tapi betul jugak kekadang nye..haha

us 3.meletops.below is Susu

and since did not manage to snap a complete pic,these are the people whom i miss the mooosst

these 3 are from the Bukit Jalil office

Rizal is so effin diva

Riez mak hayam super! haha...we call him kakak..

if u read thru my annual dinner post ,he was the Chinese ghost

Susu another kakak !!

Nana !

sorry i shall not post my one,it turned out sooo uggly..eeewww

some of the facilitators from RCJ Consultant.

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p/s :at the end of all this,all staffs got an MP3 player!woot woot.i is illiterate when it comes to Mp3 thats why i never buy em,but since its free.i am forced to learn!so easy wan ah?wtf bimbo.kekeke..

This is to all  who is backlashing me from behind.

you have no right to judge the way i live.you know nuts about my upbringing and my family.every person have got a right to choose the way they live.i can list down more than 10 people who is like me or in my lifestyle.i am not saying i condone what i do and spreading it to other 'innocent' soul..i choose to be open about everything i do and not be a hypocrite.what is a purpose of having a blog if one cant reveal his / her own true self for others?
i am not offended at all.that is how u see it.its up to u.fuck hell i dun care.if u do not like to read the way i live or me being myself,then please just dont link me then.i am blogging for myself and for friends and random strangers who loves blog hopping.dun worry i am not worrying bout my traffic at all,cz i dun care at all bout all that.

signed wit kisses,your toxic blogger Fafa

dear all.i am goin off the radar for awhile till i fully cured my anti-blogging disease.thanks.much love.contact me in my FB.muakhxiies.

for the last 2 weeks,a few of my close friends are pressuring me the same thing.they asking me when am i going to settle down wit 1 guy.course i have scandaling around introducing different guys all the time.well.honestly speaking i am no where near ready to open up my heart to love again.i admit my last toxic relationship left me so bruised and unsure of myself in the love department.i know,i cant handle another nasty drama breakup,and invest emotionally and mentally over the male specimens for the time being.

i have been in these game far too long to more less understand men.i dun dare say i know all men generallly or as a whole but just men dat attracts me and vice versa.i know their game,so i play it smart.sama-sama happy hati tak sakit.

if men cheat ? why women cant ? i dun fucking get this concept.for some if men cheat its normal,but for women to do so,she's a fucking whore.

even when i am in between men,i lie to some and say im not seeing anyone else,but at times i just tell the truth.to me,i dun see why do i  need to be answerable to them,when i clearly know that what we have aint going far.i admit i may use men for my own satisfaction.i have a phonebook burst full of them.as long as i am not done wit the game,i'mma be having my fun.

i am a LOUD person,whoever have my Facebook account knows that my status updates are no holds barred,and sometimes really towards sexuality . but i am comfortable discussing anything.i am a sexual person.there is nothing wrong wit it is there? stop being fickle minded and broaden up your mind.

at times i feel that i need to hide part of my true self  in front of certain friends,as i feel that they cant handle the real me.the truth.the dirrty.the notty.the parrty. (just feel like rhyming.but yea u get wat i mean right?) , but slowly i am opening up to some,course FUCK IT if some of you cant accept the real me,then your not my real friend after all.

i am generally a damn nice person.it even sickens me at times.if people come to me for help,i will help with the best of my ability and go all out.i like to accommodate others and see them happy as the result.i am not pleasing anyone,i just HAD to so that he / she is comfortable or happy or thankful , although at times i may not like it,but i just do not like to let others down.some commented i am too sweet to some who had created lotsa shit for me before,but i have no answer to that.i am nice wit an open heart just expecting an honest friendship back.

sometimes i dont understand myself.i always prefer to get hurt by others rather than me hurting their feelings.i have been on several situations where i had to practice "cruel to be kind" but in the end it left me feeling sooo bad and guilty.

i started this post wit no purpose or direction,i just feel like addressing others how i feel .and who i really am.

after much blog hopping i suddenly got the itch to update . but im not really sure as to where to start,so just will head straight to my company's Annual Dinner.it was a great success and this time around is waaay better then last year's Masquerade Ball.Coincidently it was on Halloween night itself.so no need to guess the theme of the night.anyway throwing in pics and story along the way

some of the "ghost" there were a heck lot !

after party

won lucky draw.a lamp!

wit  my best friends and 'teman tapi mesra'

@ Cloth & Cleft ;Changkat Bukit Bintang

Farish Daniel

back at hotel 5.30am , wakeup call at 8.50am !!

@Impiana's Pool

i asked my girlie to take over the wheel to drive us home back to Ipoh,after hanging out at Pavi and Sg Wang for the rest of the day.i went crazy at Cotton On!

on 22nd going down again!! this time we will be put up at Hilton for a night,den head to Astro Bukit Jalil at 6.15am! by 6.30 leave for Corus Paradise Resort PD for 2 days off team building session !

currently on a long hiatus for awhile.too much going on lately to update.sorry you guys.

officially actively and very semangat-ly (adakah perkataan itu?) persuing for this

 Blackberry Bold 9000

say no to Curve